ambivalence said:
Hi there, I'm new..
I live in Denmark in Scandinavia.
I'm 15 years old, born on October 7th.
My name is Emma and I have a depression, an eating disorder and I've been lonely for most of my life.
Well being fifteen is never easy,,and those years prior seem A long time, I know. I too have been diagnoised with depression,,then they later said well, must be Manic major depression,,years later they again re- diagnoised it as Bi Polar manic major depression,,,I think it depends on the latest drugs the Pharmesutical Co's are pushing to sell at the time for the NEXT "I can't spell today !" wonder drug they just developed.
I think before they had a name for it,,"it was termed "meloncholly" common to most Mountain men from being alone to long. I wish I was in a mountain right now. Then I too would have excuse to be depressed.
Guess how old I am? done quessing,, I am 55yrs old Born in Oct as well.
At fifteen you should encircle your self with peole from your school or your nieghbor hood,,,even if you feel they think your wierd or something.
Depression is nothing to be taken as ugly or "OMG! he/ or she has a disease! But if you stay on the side lines,,, they will naturally assume there must be something wrong with that person,, because you stand out like a sore thumb. Mustering the courage for that first encounter,, is the easiest part of any relationship,,Know why? because you BOTH are new to each other and that putts you on equal ground,, ther just as afriad you will find flaws with them as you are. What is the difficult problem is KEEPING a GOOD relationship STRONG and HONEST.
We all have Flaws or defects that each of us for some darn reason focus on and THINK everyone else does too! This is just not true in reality though. People believe it or not are attracted to the PLEASANT the things in life,,that includes feature's and personalities and quality's. That is why it is so easy in this life to be CONNED out of or into something.. we want to believe and LOOK for thos plesantrie's EVERYWHERE and we don't even Know or are aware we are doing it.
So,,,,,,,welcome and you are not really alone after all,, only by choice, you came here,, go make you a friend or two and lighten up on yourself.
You may even find you are CURED of your depression if you do.