2 weeks ago my best friend of 3 years who I was suppose to be close to dumped me when he said he wanted to hang, in front of a girl i liked who was close to him as a friend as well.
This person and I hanged a lot on numerous occasion, but as over the years I've seen him change into a person who was starting to lose respect and looked down on me, and never saw me as an equal, he could never understand why I was depressed and even if I was he looked down upon it and said to me "I think you are only feeling like this cause you want people to feel sorry for you, and you act in self pity, its unattractive" , he became a person who thought mental illness such as depression was done for selfish reasons, he judged my actions,ridiculed and criticized my actions majority of the time. And always made me justify everything I did. While he justified his actions as right, and that because hes going to go save his country one day, that made him a good selfless person.
I lost my virginity and had my first kiss to the girl I had feelings for who I met through him, as all three of us started hanging out I got to know her and developed feelings for her, however she didn't feel the same way, however she liked him when I found out eventually although he never felt the same way about her and he was in a relationship at the time, and gradually this girl started treating me like dirt, criticizing me and ridiculing me, and snapping at me when i didn't agree with her in certain times or if I made a mistake.
When I confronted her about this, she told me i didn't deserve her, and that I'm the biggest ******* and deserve everything that's happened to me, and people will never appreciate or love me back. eventually she told him everything behind my back after that, but twisted the words to make me look like the biggest ******* in the world, he dumped me on the spot, and stated I used the girl for sex, and that I am an animal who can't control himself and didn't deserve what I got because I didn't work for it, and that I acted out of self pity.
Right in front of the girl, and but both dumped me as friends. The worst of it all, he made me feel very guilty for what happened. I realized he never liked me being happy, he liked to accept the fact I was different. I apologized in front of him but he left me in the spot to rot. I realized after my mind cleared up that I should of never acted like a push over and made to feel guilty. I feel kinda angry towards this person because they have always brought me down made to feel guilty for everything i did, made me to feel worthless for who I was because I was different.
I've managed to overcome my depression, I'm not as depressed as I use to be, I've completed my psychologist therapy, and did it without any anti depressants, after my friend dumped me, my mind started to clear up and I realized I was never at fault, it was always the people who made me feel inferior and I was always being a push over and letting people get to me. I've had a better clear picture and better mind lately. But I'm still angry at this person, our friendship is forever over, we don't speak or see each other anymore. But i have this strong sense of want, to confront this person lately because this person unfairly trapped me and then broke me into pieces when they dumped me on the spot,and I never had a chance to talk to this person about how I felt at all.
I don't share hatred for this person, or lust for revenge, but I wished this person just knew how much of a prick they were even though they don't realize it. They always tried to brainwash me with their self righteous ideas, and I believed everything they said.
So has anyone ever been dumped by their best friends, and developed a sense of dislike for this person?
This person and I hanged a lot on numerous occasion, but as over the years I've seen him change into a person who was starting to lose respect and looked down on me, and never saw me as an equal, he could never understand why I was depressed and even if I was he looked down upon it and said to me "I think you are only feeling like this cause you want people to feel sorry for you, and you act in self pity, its unattractive" , he became a person who thought mental illness such as depression was done for selfish reasons, he judged my actions,ridiculed and criticized my actions majority of the time. And always made me justify everything I did. While he justified his actions as right, and that because hes going to go save his country one day, that made him a good selfless person.
I lost my virginity and had my first kiss to the girl I had feelings for who I met through him, as all three of us started hanging out I got to know her and developed feelings for her, however she didn't feel the same way, however she liked him when I found out eventually although he never felt the same way about her and he was in a relationship at the time, and gradually this girl started treating me like dirt, criticizing me and ridiculing me, and snapping at me when i didn't agree with her in certain times or if I made a mistake.
When I confronted her about this, she told me i didn't deserve her, and that I'm the biggest ******* and deserve everything that's happened to me, and people will never appreciate or love me back. eventually she told him everything behind my back after that, but twisted the words to make me look like the biggest ******* in the world, he dumped me on the spot, and stated I used the girl for sex, and that I am an animal who can't control himself and didn't deserve what I got because I didn't work for it, and that I acted out of self pity.
Right in front of the girl, and but both dumped me as friends. The worst of it all, he made me feel very guilty for what happened. I realized he never liked me being happy, he liked to accept the fact I was different. I apologized in front of him but he left me in the spot to rot. I realized after my mind cleared up that I should of never acted like a push over and made to feel guilty. I feel kinda angry towards this person because they have always brought me down made to feel guilty for everything i did, made me to feel worthless for who I was because I was different.
I've managed to overcome my depression, I'm not as depressed as I use to be, I've completed my psychologist therapy, and did it without any anti depressants, after my friend dumped me, my mind started to clear up and I realized I was never at fault, it was always the people who made me feel inferior and I was always being a push over and letting people get to me. I've had a better clear picture and better mind lately. But I'm still angry at this person, our friendship is forever over, we don't speak or see each other anymore. But i have this strong sense of want, to confront this person lately because this person unfairly trapped me and then broke me into pieces when they dumped me on the spot,and I never had a chance to talk to this person about how I felt at all.
I don't share hatred for this person, or lust for revenge, but I wished this person just knew how much of a prick they were even though they don't realize it. They always tried to brainwash me with their self righteous ideas, and I believed everything they said.
So has anyone ever been dumped by their best friends, and developed a sense of dislike for this person?
