Do you love life?

[Azariah]

Do you love life? If not when and why do you think you stopped loving life?

i remember when i was a kid i had no problems. the first time i remember i ecountered sadness and confusion was when i was about 5 when i saw my mom chasing my dad with a knife around a kitchen table. i cried like wtf is going on. i didn't understand any of it all.

thats why growing up me and my mom had trouble connecting but now everything is all right. i love her.

wbu?

 

[Finished]

No. I don't love life. But, I keep trying. I do things that I enjoy or like to do and try to avoid things that I don't. Sometimes life can be awesome! I wish it could always be that way. I have found that I'm happier alone without friends / family. But, I do wonder what it would be like living with someone that is always positive. Would that rub of on me or would I accidentally bring the other person down?

 

[Abstamyous]

I love the thought of life. I'm still trying to learn to love the tough parts.

 

[Fragilegirl]

No I don’t love life. I’ve always felt that life was a struggle not a gift. I think it’s just because my personality is like that. Things that other people seem to get through rather easily seem extremely difficult for me. Making friends ,getting jobs ,dealing with certain health situations. Any obstacle or stumbling block that comes my way I find to be an insurmountable mountain to climb. When I was a child I suppose I loved life to a certain extent. but even then I was filled with anxiety. I don’t know when I stopped loving life. But I suppose it might have begun when my father died. And definitely the rest of it was killed off when I lost my mother. Now it just seems one long test that I don’t know how to pass.

 

[Macsimum Myers]

Hell no.

 

[NoxApex(N/A)]

Life is mostly suffering.
Which is a Buddhist principle, but also pretty true.
I'm thankful that I'm easily entertained, but I don't think anybody actually enjoys life, at least not in its great entirety.
I mostly hate life, but I handle it decently therein.
That could be because I hit misanthropy in my teens and then rejoiced in my 20s when people stopped writing off my personality staple as teen angst.
I think it was Mark Twain that said:
"A man who's a pessimist before the age of 48 knows too much, if he's an optimist after it he knows too little."
But also it was Jim Carrey in Liar, Liar who said begrudgingly while frustrated "It's all a matter of willpower!"

 

[user 148069]

i remember when i was a kid i had no problems. the first time i remember i ecountered sadness and confusion was when i was about 5 when i saw my mom chasing my dad with a knife around a kitchen table. i cried like wtf is going on. i didn't understand any of it all.

thats why growing up me and my mom had trouble connecting but now everything is all right. i love her.

Can't imagine what that was like. Must be a terrifying moment to witness that. I'm glad to hear that things are okay now. I hope she got some help and you too.

Do you love life? If not when and why do you think you stopped loving life?

I think I started hating life when I was very young, say about 10 or 11. I felt like a nuisance and that my presence wasn't wanted even at that age. Some of the things my parents did and the other adults in my life reinforced those ideas. Somehow these thoughts stick around? Now I'm in a cycle of "I wish I could end it all" but at the same time I'm afraid of death. These days I feel like I'm managing those thoughts a little better. I know they will pass. I try to be present in the moment and appreciate little happy moments. My pet cat helps me a lot, she's mostly always by my side. I have a partner who cares about me in his own way.

 

[Adamridge79]

I love being alive...life, well...there are many, many obstacles that keep me in depression and pills. But, I do like being able to see things I wouldn't if I were dead. So, life is what I wade through, or more accurately get buried under. But alive. That can be a win if I actually pay attention.

 

[constant stranger]

No I don't love life and never really have loved it.......and I'm old, 69. There were many years I endured and just accepted that day after day, my life was a tedious, joyless treadmill of duties. That's what brought me to this forum 9 years ago. Three years ago the primary cause of my joyless life exited the picture........my 94 year old, difficult and ailing mother for whom I was the sole caregiver died.
Since then I've discovered that the absence of a big set of problems doesn't necessarily result in automatic happiness.
Things for me are a lot better now. I'm not desperate. Logistically I'm pretty comfortable. My health is good. I'm active in my church. I volunteer as a pastoral visitor at the local hospital. Five months out of the year I conduct a successful farmers market booth selling breads and cookies that I bake and I get a lot of repeat business and make some decent money.
But that's it. I'm alone, alone 99% of the time.
I don't love life. Not yet anyway. And I don't really know how to go about actually enjoying it.

 

[Finished]

No I don't love life and never really have loved it.......and I'm old, 69. There were many years I endured and just accepted that day after day, my life was a tedious, joyless treadmill of duties. That's what brought me to this forum 9 years ago. Three years ago the primary cause of my joyless life exited the picture........my 94 year old, difficult and ailing mother for whom I was the sole caregiver died.
Since then I've discovered that the absence of a big set of problems doesn't necessarily result in automatic happiness.
Things for me are a lot better now. I'm not desperate. Logistically I'm pretty comfortable. My health is good. I'm active in my church. I volunteer as a pastoral visitor at the local hospital. Five months out of the year I conduct a successful farmers market booth selling breads and cookies that I bake and I get a lot of repeat business and make some decent money.
But that's it. I'm alone, alone 99% of the time.
I don't love life. Not yet anyway. And I don't really know how to go about actually enjoying it.

Those are some awesome things that you are doing. Is there a retirement center near you? There's two near me. I plan to go to them when I'm a little older.

 

[user 188685]

no,I don't love life,and never really have,I have just always felt alone and lonely, I guess being along and lonely is just a way of life for me if that makes any sense at all.

 

[Loner_Wolf]

Not particularly, I tolerate it at best.

 

[Finished]

I love Mexican Food and eat it almost every day. Food brings me the most joy in my life.

 

[P.k.]

Nope. I’m in a bad marriage so I absolutely hate my life right now. I do want to be happy again.

 

[Adamridge79]

I love that I'm alive to experience it. I may not be as happy as I'd like, but at least there's a possibility...maybe...eventually...hopefully

 

[user 188685]

Nope. I’m in a bad marriage so I absolutely hate my life right now. I do want to be happy again.

I'm so sorry to hear that

 

[P.k.]

Thank you SunflowerGirl1306. It really is a lonely and stressful situation