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For no unknown reason? Well, that's the way it has been with me. I've just never been a good people person, I've always been awkward, clumsy and shy. And then many times, out of nervousness and clumsiness, I would say the wrong thing, making my situation worse.
At school, this was the way. I hardly had any friends, I was always the outcast. All my life I was at church and even then, the same thing. A couple of people particularly in church hurt me, and one girl in particular, who I never got on with and who was rude, sulky and distant from me, despite all my best efforts.
At work, we have a new employee that from day one doesn't interact with me, and it hurts deeply. This person talks friendly to everyone except me, and yet I have gone out of my way to help, even giving my personal telephone number and offering to call me any time, even in the middle of the night, if she is stuck (on call work-person works on their own during call). And yet nothing but cold distance.
And yes, my first post even here (which I fully acknowledge to someone who doesn't understand may come across as "weird"-or maybe it's my own stupid, clumsy, worthless, ******* fault for putting the word "weird" in the question. I was just trying to anticipate others), only one person replied. That's okay, nothing against anyone here, story of my life. I really regret that first post now, I'll never embaress myself like that again.
But I will say that I did have a reprieve in uni. That was the only time in my life this veil of loneliness lifted, and I genuinely had many meaningful contacts and a few close friends. But alas, they're all far away now.
Anyhoo, if you like cats, old school rock (Black Sabbath, Led Zeppelin, Deep Purple, Rainbow, Uriah Heep, Whitesnake etc) and V8 cars, you have something in common with me.
And yeah, I saw Black Sabbath live recently-alone. Go figure.
At school, this was the way. I hardly had any friends, I was always the outcast. All my life I was at church and even then, the same thing. A couple of people particularly in church hurt me, and one girl in particular, who I never got on with and who was rude, sulky and distant from me, despite all my best efforts.
At work, we have a new employee that from day one doesn't interact with me, and it hurts deeply. This person talks friendly to everyone except me, and yet I have gone out of my way to help, even giving my personal telephone number and offering to call me any time, even in the middle of the night, if she is stuck (on call work-person works on their own during call). And yet nothing but cold distance.
And yes, my first post even here (which I fully acknowledge to someone who doesn't understand may come across as "weird"-or maybe it's my own stupid, clumsy, worthless, ******* fault for putting the word "weird" in the question. I was just trying to anticipate others), only one person replied. That's okay, nothing against anyone here, story of my life. I really regret that first post now, I'll never embaress myself like that again.
But I will say that I did have a reprieve in uni. That was the only time in my life this veil of loneliness lifted, and I genuinely had many meaningful contacts and a few close friends. But alas, they're all far away now.
Anyhoo, if you like cats, old school rock (Black Sabbath, Led Zeppelin, Deep Purple, Rainbow, Uriah Heep, Whitesnake etc) and V8 cars, you have something in common with me.
And yeah, I saw Black Sabbath live recently-alone. Go figure.