Resolve said:
Sacred Garden-
Times For Four-
SNAPPED-
Those are beautiful.
Resolve said:
I love this poem.... Potentially because every time my mother told us we were moving again it was all her fault due to a drug habit, and I just love how obvious it is that you care so deeply for your children.
ssbanks2000 said:
I adore this.
ssbanks2000 said:
Every morning when I gain victory from sleep
This makes me want to cry, but that is a credit to your ability as a writer I think.
Mike Moose said:
A voice cries out,
I feel you shake,
Tears and smiles,
When your awake,
I'll see you at the bottom,
And take you to the top,
Pain will never last,
And we can make it stop.
hmmm needs a tune me thinks!
It does need a tune and I'd love the song version also!
suckaG I pretty much love everything you posted =]
Lullaby Dreams:
a flying leap leaves my eyeS squeezed closed
the splintering crash leaves me finally composed
as i confront a problem i can finally comprehend
life's problems hUrt far more than my short life's end
so i breathe one last breath as my ribs filter out aIr
and enjoy the emptiness when i let go of my one last care
blood drains from my Chest cavity and i can smile at last
green grass becomes blood red blades; my life fades fast
my eyes drIft closed and i am overcome with joy
but as it turns out i am merely reality's victim and toy
my eyes open to an unbroken boDy sleeping in bed
and suddenly my legs are as heavy as solid lead
as i come to even more i find it was nothing but a dream
the frustration builds up and makes me want to scrEam
i sought refuge in sleep and instead i was simply led on
upon waking i found my misery was simply sped on
with that i turn over and return to that lovely dark fantasy
and let my dream world immerse my soul in complete ecstasy
Broken Glass:
crashIng, thrasHing, bound and gAgged
Torn and broken my hopEless body is dragged
across the crude wooden floor of despair
the splinters of failure rip and tear
i screaM silently against mY own madness
and give in to racking sobS of sadness
you trust me, you love me, you care
i lEt you all down, it's more than i can bear
please just leave, sLice me open, end to end
watch as my blood and tears mix and blend
mark me as damaged goods, black as coal
leave me to never harm another soul
move onward, Forward, never swerving
please don't love me, i'm not deserving
crumpled in a pile on the dirty ground
feeling my cold heart pound for pound
it's where i belong, don't ever trust me
you think i'm wrong but soon, you'll see.
Statue:
an angel of mercy decends from the heavens upon me
an angel with a broken past and unfulfilled destiny
this messenger stills my tongue and silences all protest
a deep breath enters my lungs and i no longer feel distressed
cool, sweet air flows past my lips and my muscles collapse
could this formidable stranger be here for me, perhaps?
a few hours in a tree go by and the cliff becomes even steeper
sitting on a rock as the tide comes in, watching the water get deeper
soon i am attatched to the fateful day this soldier fell to me
subliminal light dissolving the broken, dirty debris
as i wait for my nocturnal hero to awake
i pray to my lord God that i wont be yet again deemed a misteak
hope wells up and overflows from my thankful soul
as i once again begin to feel (maybe permanently) whole
Truth:
one step forward, two steps back
around the edges my vision goes black
i walk this limbo as if in a trance
and once again start this fateful dance
i start to change, my opinion shifts
support flows in, my spirits lift
something happens, i revert
my words grow slow, my mind alert
my elation crumbles to no more than dust
i throw away all my thoughts of trust
it is no more than a fairy tale
and the story will forever seem stale
break down these walls if you dare
but failure awaits those who dont truly care
if you succeed but then betray my heart
the guilt will be as a poison dart
or as a parasite hidden deep within
eating you apart, feeding on your sin
i will be left exposed and afraid
but ive won in this most horrible trade
The Incomplete View:
all time drags on, yet the days fly by
confusion is a follower impossible to deny
i dawdle through my daily tasks
and interchange my many masks
but no matter what my emotion seems
thoughts of you fill my daydreams
my life is now a carnival ride
while im strapped in, nowhere to hide
one glance from you and i can fly
your words register and i fall from the sky
a sigh of disapointment breathes past my lips
i fell it as the scale in my heart once again tips
my emotions soar to violent extremes
my outsides float, my insides echo with screams
hearing your voice -- it makes me quake
i feel tremors like ripples on a lake
my chin starts to quiver; my eyes well up
enough tears pour down to fill a bottomless cup
id love to succeed, but i cant lie
at this point im just trying to get by
this poem has no end in view
it shall remain the unfinished image of me and you
The Mirror:
I lay in a puddle on the floor
lamenting the knock that never came to my door
I look up to the heavens above
desperately seeking a sign that I'm loved
when suddenly inspiration homes in
and I find a way to avoid yet more sin
instead of forsaking what I believe
and once again resorting to long sleeves
I grab the nearest image of truth I find
the mirror on my wall is not always kind
but I need its truth, it never tells a lie
its honesty is steady, never wavering or asking why
I write on this unforgiving reflection
in my eyes I see the proof of my heart’s dereliction
but as I watch pen flow
my heart feels free and those eyes begin to glow
a dangerous limbo once controlled my soul
but as the darkness is banished I start to feel whole
some say evil is black, good is white
but whatever the color, I'm being filled with light
there’s always beauty, and there’s always pain
but one doesn’t have to be the others bane
we've all seen both in one another
but more important is the shift from one to the other
I'm in no hurry, I refuse to push or shove
I'm waiting on the guidance I know will come from above
Darkfall Turns to Dawn:
I fight my anger and bite back tears
But I've seen too much over the years
In the midst of all this strife
I've seen a mother beaten within an inch of her life
I've seen a young boy with a novel of words he couldn’t speak
His face bright red, his frustration at a peak
I've looked out through the eyes of a little girl
Who didn’t understand all the fuss and whirl
When she was seven she said “no mommy that’s not what I wanna do”
And later ended up crying herself blue
She didn’t wanna live on the streets like she had since she was born
But loyalty to the one that raised her had left her feeling torn
She felt so guilty, she’d let her mom down
And for a long while all she could do was frown
At school she felt isolated and all alone
The others just teased ─ she was all on her own
As a 12 year old she pointed the blame
Blindly at herself, without first taking careful aim
She cried herself to sleep nearly every night
Then woke from a nightmare, screaming with fright
She learned to hide what she was feeling
Outwardly happy, inside she was reeling
She was a “normal” child for a few years
Then began a whole new set of tears
All she wanted was a boy to like her
That should be easy, her friends all seemed sure
But her early trauma prevented teenaged simplicity
And led her to boys who treated her with duplicity
She dealt with these problems with the semblance of a smile
But inside she once again put herself on trial
She once again felt the sharp sting of shame
As she once again believed herself to be at blame
She tried so hard to control what she felt
And ended up with an angry red welt
It was her first attempt at a cut, and it was futile
But she tried again after a great while
Soon enough a ruby red stream trickled down her arm
The endorphin rush blocked what should have been alarm
She repeated it day after day for far too long
Until something inside her just felt wrong
She felt so bad and she couldn’t lie
All she wanted to do now was die
She was just about to do the deed
When she felt an urge she thought shed heed
Unexpectedly she began to pray
Just as the first rays of sun heralded the new day
She got the help from some divine intervention
But there’s something else I think I should mention
This isn’t a fairytale, this story is true
This girl is as real as anyone around you
She still sometimes hurts, sometimes more than most
Perfection is not a quality she can rightfully boast
In fact as she writes this she is fighting her anger, and biting back tears
As she ponders the many things she has seen over her few years
Mask:
Surrounded by beauty I sit and think
how much of this is a lie, black as ink?
maybe all is simply an illusion
brought on by a terrible contusion
day after day I survive this dark fantasy
with a plastic production of ecstasy
everyone tells everyone else they’re fine
only because no one dares to cross the line
and no one looks deep into their eyes
to see beyond all those cruel lies
as I sit and cry my way though the night
I wish I could see the truth and be blinded by the light
those around me tell me to open up
so I pour out my life’s blood, only to find them a shallow cup
they listen for a moment then think "duty fulfilled"
if I continue on their energy is all but killed
yet those same people flock to me, their secrets to tell
I sympathize and listen, trapping myself inside this hell
I go through the daily motions, it seems
as though my life were but a dream
I am quite simply floating around, lost
and now I wonder what may be the cost
I sometimes question if I am still whole
or if I could be -- maybe -- wandering without a soul
but until my salvation takes shape
I shall wait in silence for my escape