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[ShybutHi]

The other day i was feeling incredibly irritable and thinking about how lonely i am and found this forum. Anyone else get this incredible aggitation and strange stomach feeling? Consistant bombardment of demoralizing thought patterns? Its horrible i was feeling extremely irritable nearly all day.
Its not like i dont have interests and hobbies which i enjoy doing either i was just simply too aggitated to stick with doing something for any lengthy period of time.

I am 23 years old, had one relationship (for about 5 months) in my life which was about 7 years ago but it didnt work out so i decided to end the relationship, still a virgin not that it really matters that much although most people dont seem to be at my age.

Now im just feeling incredibly lonely, i have quite alot of friends and i get on with my family well but i never talk about relationships or anything emotional with them, they all just seem to keep it to themselves as do i. Im also a very shy person and find it hard to talk to people i dont know at first although i am improving, once i get to know people or used to their company it eases off slowely. I did at one point used to get panic attacks because of anxiety but that was a few years ago now, i still get the anxiety sometimes but its not nearly as bad.

Sigh...

Hi to all here in lonely land. I hope everyone is well.

 

[Yukhi]

Hi ShybutHi and welcome to alonelylife forums!

I dunno how you feel about being a virgin but I'm proud of being one. Guess it's about culture and peer pressure I guess. Anyways enjoy your time here!

 

[ShybutHi]

Hi Yukhi, thanks for the reply. Being a virgin doesnt bother me that much but it would be nice to meet a women who i was comfortable with, i wouldnt say no if the time was right, im not religious and my views on sex are pretty open. Im more of the relationship type.

 

[Yukhi]

Ahhh I see. There's actually a "relationship" type. I didn't know haha! Nice name btw

 

[Drama]

Welcome

 

[monstersia]

The other day i was feeling incredibly irritable and thinking about how lonely i am and found this forum. Anyone else get this incredible aggitation and strange stomach feeling? Consistant bombardment of demoralizing thought patterns? Its horrible i was feeling extremely irritable nearly all day.
Its not like i dont have interests and hobbies which i enjoy doing either i was just simply too aggitated to stick with doing something for any lengthy period of time.

I am 23 years old, had one relationship (for about 5 months) in my life which was about 7 years ago but it didnt work out so i decided to end the relationship, still a virgin not that it really matters that much although most people dont seem to be at my age.

Now im just feeling incredibly lonely, i have quite alot of friends and i get on with my family well but i never talk about relationships or anything emotional with them, they all just seem to keep it to themselves as do i. Im also a very shy person and find it hard to talk to people i dont know at first although i am improving, once i get to know people or used to their company it eases off slowely. I did at one point used to get panic attacks because of anxiety but that was a few years ago now, i still get the anxiety sometimes but its not nearly as bad.

Sigh...

Hi to all here in lonely land. I hope everyone is well.

Hi! I am bi-polar and some of what you are describing is reminisccent of my unmedicated and undiagnosed days. Yesterday was the first day in a very long time that I started feeling lonely. I've been having self-destructive thoughts again and it's all because my buddies seem to have lives and I don't have one without them, nor do I have a life companion. Someone did try to visit me in the middle of the night because he goes through similar episodes on a regular basis, but they got into trouble with the DOT once they got into town and never made it here. I took a lot of sleeping pills last night, but didn't try to OD. I just wanted to sleep the pain away. I thought when I woke up this morning it was over, but I have been battling myself since an hour after I got up. What's worse is it is affecting my daughter's emotional health as well. She says she is sad, too!

I don't know what to do with myself. I have $11 to last until Tuesday, so we can't really go anywhere. I do plan on the lake tomorrow because it will be hot, but that's 24 hours away! How do I entertain the both of us until then? What makes me feel even more secluded is that I ran out of text today, and none of my friends (nor I) really like to talk on the phone.

I'm sorry I got onto a ME tangent, but I would look into the possibility that you are bi-polar or have borderline personality disorder. Once you are diagnosed, it is easier for docs to find a medicine combo that works. My daughter's father is how I found the right stuff because I was lucky enough to have a doc that listened to me when I told him what I was taking and why. I no longer take that medicine, but have taken others similar to it, plus Lithium. Lithium is what seems to maintain my sanity level for me. I can go off the other stuff with few reprocussions. Maybe I need to have my Lithium level checked Monday?

Anyway, may Yahweh bless you and hear those who are praying for you, including me

 

[SofiasMami]

Hi-
Nice to meet you and welcome to the forum!

-Teresa

 

[ShybutHi]

Ah im sorry to hear of your lonliness. I dont think i am actually bipolar, its probably depression, although i am generally a pretty happy person and my interests in music (i am a musician) keep me occupied most of the time. Its just recently i have felt really lonely and i think it really is more because the way i was brought up and how my friends are means i have basically NEVER in my life talked about emotional issues. Also the fact that im very shy (being shy and a musician is hell sometimes!) makes it even worse. I have absolutely no emotional outlet and have never really had proper affection from my parents, had to move a few times in my life living with my dad then my mum then my dad again and then my mum going to live abroad. Infact thinking about it if i wasnt into music i would probably be really depressed, i suppose that is my main emotive outlet.

Forums like this are good atleast they can help in certain situations. Its nice being able to talk about this and reflect on it.

 

[mintymint]

Welcome to the site, ShybutHi