marshall19
New member
Hi, everyone. My name is Marshall. I am 19 (going on 20 in a few weeks). Not really sure what to say about myself. I live in Georgia with my family, and I'm a college student majoring in foreign language.
So, a bit about myself...I've always pretty much been a social person when I'm in public. I can be rather shy and standoffish at first, but my friends at school say I'm extremely talkative. My issue really is that as soon as I leave school, all those relationships stay there. I don't bring anyone home or go anywhere. I've only ever been to see a movie with friends 3 times in my life, and I remember each of those times very well and what movie we saw.
My parents say my problem is that I don't try hard enough to socialize outside of school, but I don't really want to. I was very heavily abused growing up by my brother, and because of that, I was rather messed up for a long time. I never wanted to play with the other kids, because none of them understood, and it was very hard to deal with that. So, I spent my entire childhood alone pretty much. I'm not complaining. I preferred to be alone then, and I do now as well. I find people to be sometimes rather dramatic for my tastes. Most people I meet get upset over silly, trivial things, and I can't understand it at all.
That being said, 90% of my friendships don't last more than 6 months. There are people who meet me and seem enthusiastic about becoming friends. I may share many interests with them and everything will go great for a few months. If I don't somehow screw things up, they just get bored with my, "No...I think I'll just stay at home and read a book," attitude towards things. That's really how I feel, though. I think some people feel I'm boring or brushing them off, but I prefer to just stay at home. Watch a movie, read a book, talk privately. I hate crowds and going out in public.
That's pretty much me in a nutshell. I guess the reason why I'm here is because I do get rather lonely sometimes. I've pushed every single person away in my life, and while I don't really see that changing any time soon, I can at least have friends online, right?
Thank you for your time. Have a great day!
So, a bit about myself...I've always pretty much been a social person when I'm in public. I can be rather shy and standoffish at first, but my friends at school say I'm extremely talkative. My issue really is that as soon as I leave school, all those relationships stay there. I don't bring anyone home or go anywhere. I've only ever been to see a movie with friends 3 times in my life, and I remember each of those times very well and what movie we saw.
My parents say my problem is that I don't try hard enough to socialize outside of school, but I don't really want to. I was very heavily abused growing up by my brother, and because of that, I was rather messed up for a long time. I never wanted to play with the other kids, because none of them understood, and it was very hard to deal with that. So, I spent my entire childhood alone pretty much. I'm not complaining. I preferred to be alone then, and I do now as well. I find people to be sometimes rather dramatic for my tastes. Most people I meet get upset over silly, trivial things, and I can't understand it at all.
That being said, 90% of my friendships don't last more than 6 months. There are people who meet me and seem enthusiastic about becoming friends. I may share many interests with them and everything will go great for a few months. If I don't somehow screw things up, they just get bored with my, "No...I think I'll just stay at home and read a book," attitude towards things. That's really how I feel, though. I think some people feel I'm boring or brushing them off, but I prefer to just stay at home. Watch a movie, read a book, talk privately. I hate crowds and going out in public.
That's pretty much me in a nutshell. I guess the reason why I'm here is because I do get rather lonely sometimes. I've pushed every single person away in my life, and while I don't really see that changing any time soon, I can at least have friends online, right?
Thank you for your time. Have a great day!
