Hush
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I'm not sure what I am doing here, guess I'll find out.
I am lonely. Sometimes I hate it, sometimes I need it but I don't understand it.
I find people exhaust me, I'm in a World full of cheats and liars, money makers and fiends. I don't relate to this World, I'm really not a fan. I left home (runaway I guess) at 16 and never spoke to my family again.
I used to have God, but I was young and naive. Now I have, as I do with everything, studied, investigated and dissected every aspect of God, the Human ID and life I have found nothing worth having.
I used to be pretty angry at the World, but that has been replaced with disappointment.
Now, I go to work, keep myself to myself, come home and play my guitar, write, read and find any form of escape.
I can't form relationships with people because I don't get them and they don't get me. I see suffering on a daily basis, all around the World and - at the risk of being contrived, feel their pain. What hurts me more is humanity and their inability to resolve it.
I don't want to 'sort myself out first'. I am the sane one, it's the rest of the World that's crazy.
So I am looking for other people like me, other people who get where I am coming from.
I am lonely but it is self imposed. I'm not a weirdo, I'm not a goth, I am a good looking guy with a big heart. I'm not stupid or self centered (although slightly arrogant) and have a good head on my shoulders. I don't want to kill myself and never have those kind of thoughts.
I want to find an island and lvie there with other people who, I dunno, 'get me'. But after so long, I am pretty convinced I am on my own.
This is a last attempt to find other people. Through the internet of all places.
Anyway, that's me. I am a mess from an outside point of view. I am alone from an inside point of view.
I hope this doesn't come across as being too much of a douche. Considering I spend so much time writing, I'm really not good at this kind of stuff.
Thanks for reading.
Hush.
I am lonely. Sometimes I hate it, sometimes I need it but I don't understand it.
I find people exhaust me, I'm in a World full of cheats and liars, money makers and fiends. I don't relate to this World, I'm really not a fan. I left home (runaway I guess) at 16 and never spoke to my family again.
I used to have God, but I was young and naive. Now I have, as I do with everything, studied, investigated and dissected every aspect of God, the Human ID and life I have found nothing worth having.
I used to be pretty angry at the World, but that has been replaced with disappointment.
Now, I go to work, keep myself to myself, come home and play my guitar, write, read and find any form of escape.
I can't form relationships with people because I don't get them and they don't get me. I see suffering on a daily basis, all around the World and - at the risk of being contrived, feel their pain. What hurts me more is humanity and their inability to resolve it.
I don't want to 'sort myself out first'. I am the sane one, it's the rest of the World that's crazy.
So I am looking for other people like me, other people who get where I am coming from.
I am lonely but it is self imposed. I'm not a weirdo, I'm not a goth, I am a good looking guy with a big heart. I'm not stupid or self centered (although slightly arrogant) and have a good head on my shoulders. I don't want to kill myself and never have those kind of thoughts.
I want to find an island and lvie there with other people who, I dunno, 'get me'. But after so long, I am pretty convinced I am on my own.
This is a last attempt to find other people. Through the internet of all places.
Anyway, that's me. I am a mess from an outside point of view. I am alone from an inside point of view.
I hope this doesn't come across as being too much of a douche. Considering I spend so much time writing, I'm really not good at this kind of stuff.
Thanks for reading.
Hush.
