Hi :)

[jc829]

So, here's a bit about me (and I attached a random pic of myself hehe).

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I love people...but I don't really know how to make long-lasting friendships or relationships, unless they're really unhealthy and strange I guess :s It seems like everyone already has their circle of friends and I'm on the outside looking in. I like to help and listen to people, but it's tough for me to get to the point of them opening up to me, unless they have no one else to talk to either heh. I love performing, but when I'm not on stage I usually blend into the background. Anyways, I'm just looking to find someone to talk to

 

[bookworm1979]

Hi, jc829!

Welcome to the forum!

I didn't look at your pic, but I'm sure you look great!

What do you mean when you say you can only make unhealthy and strange friendships? Do you find that those types of people are drawn to you, because I often have that same problem, LOL? I don't know what the answer is on how to find friends, but at least you've found a place here to vent and make some online friendships...

What kind of performance do you do on stage?

 

[Poguesy]

G'day

 

[jc829]

Hi, jc829!

Welcome to the forum!

I didn't look at your pic, but I'm sure you look great!

What do you mean when you say you can only make unhealthy and strange friendships? Do you find that those types of people are drawn to you, because I often have that same problem, LOL? I don't know what the answer is on how to find friends, but at least you've found a place here to vent and make some online friendships...

What kind of performance do you do on stage?

Hehe, well yeah I do seem to attract those sorts of people. I find myself often pursued by obsessive people who make me feel trapped :s And then I end up feeling more alone and isolated than if I had no one. As far as the performing thing, I'm an MJ impersonator...which also kind of makes me feel like an outsider--most people I talk to seem to look down on me for being a 'crazy' fan. I mean, I don't talk about him all that much, it's just that I have that reputation so I don't really have to say anything for them to treat me like a freak hehe. Anyways...I wish I knew how to put pictures into the post itself so they would show up inside the text box, rather than a separate attachment to open up...can you do that? Well, my avatar is my eyes, so I guess you've seen part of me lol. And yes, it is nice to have this place to talk to people

 

[swanlake]

Hello jc829 I think it's cool that you are a MJ impersonator and you have very pretty eyes.

 

[Hoffy]

Welcome

 

[bookworm1979]

Are the obsessive people that are attracted to you fans of MJ? If so, I can see how that would be a problem because they're not seeing the real you...

You're not a freak for being an MJ fan/impersonator...I don't know what was really going on in his personal life, but he was a great performer and he wrote some awesome songs...Like many of us on here, he did seem to be very lonely...Your profile mentions that you're a female, so that must make you unique among MJ impersonators...

I'm not sure how the picture thing works...But you have nice eyes!

 

[jc829]

Are the obsessive people that are attracted to you fans of MJ? If so, I can see how that would be a problem because they're not seeing the real you...

You're not a freak for being an MJ fan/impersonator...I don't know what was really going on in his personal life, but he was a great performer and he wrote some awesome songs...Like many of us on here, he did seem to be very lonely...Your profile mentions that you're a female, so that must make you unique among MJ impersonators...

I'm not sure how the picture thing works...But you have nice eyes!

Usually the obsessive people aren't MJ fans, or at least don't know me to be an impersonator at first (thanks for not being a hater btw hehe). They're just people who seem to form attachments way too quickly :s I feel like being too quiet sort of invites those people...They do most of the talking, and then they try to move things too fast. I remember one guy in highschool who asked me out one time, and before we even went out, he kept following me around and hugging me for a bit too long lol. And this one guy a couple of years ago who started telling me he needed to settle down with a woman soon, and we had only gone out once I also think I'm too shy to ask out the people I would actually WANT to be with hehe so that's a problem too

That's a good point and a nice insight about Michael being lonely too--I think that's a big part of why I connected with him since I was young. I remember reading in his autobio that he used to walk the streets at night looking for people to talk to, but he was disappointed because they would always just get excited about the image, not really wanting to get to know him...That made me really sad when I read that, just thinking about how difficult it would be to be looked at all the time, but not truly seen and understood.
I think we can all understand at least a small piece of that...seeing that look in a person's eye who is staring at you and judging you like an animal in a cage...either because you look 'different,' have a certain reputation, or they see you as just some random girl to try to hook up with, or whatever...it's tough when there's a certain 'thing' that makes it difficult for people to want to get to know the real you.

 

[bookworm1979]

I know what you mean...If you're quiet, people assume you're passive or stupid and think they can control you...It's good that you didn't put up with those guys trying to move things along too quickly...Just give them a good MJ kick, that'll make them stay back, LOL!

Shyness does suck, though...I don't have the answer to how to beat it (no pun intended!)...I'm 32, and I've become a bit less shy, but I guess my problem is I don't trust people so I find it difficult to let down my guard...I guess the only thing you can do is push yourself to get out of your comfort zone...If you can perform onstage in front of a crowd, you can do anything!

That MJ story is so sad...He was truly a lost soul...That must be the worst kind of loneliness: having so much adoration from fans, and then not being able to connect one-on-one with anyone because they can't get over the fame aspect...And then that whole sordid mess with the court cases...His last few years were tragic...

Yeah, I wish people would stop going by appearances and just be real with each other...My reputation is that I'm a quiet little churchmouse who doesn't have a life, LOL...But I do have a rich inner life that no one knows about because I haven't found anyone who doesn't care about superficial things...I'm guessing that's your problem, too?

 

[Lonely in BC]

Nice pic jc- welcome aboard. I've found many open minded and interesting people here.

 

[Alexander_john]

Hello,
I,m Alexander , New on this board...
Welcome to all old members of this cvommunity...i hope you all guys will enjoy here.
I require lot of from this community.