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bri
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busy day today.
i live 2 hours away from home when i'm here at school... but i like to go home when i can, usually on weekends... family and boyfriend are there.
problem is, i NEVER get anything done on weekends when i'm there... and by monday when i'm back at school i'm realizing how much crap needs to get done for the week. ughhh. but i can't bring myself NOT to go home on weekends because i hate the idea of not seeing my boyfriend for a while
february is, to top it all off, the busiest month of the school year... i'm under a lot of pressure right now and i feel like i'm on the verge of falling apart... i know it's an uphill battle from here till the end of the school year in April (at which point, i'll be done my undergrad degree, which is exciting) and it's so hard to bring myself to just get things done. i'm sick of it all. i just want to go home and hide under a blanket
it's also hard for me to talk about all this with people - i constantly feel like i don't deserve to be heard, like if i were to talk to my boyfriend about my stress he a) wouldn't understand or b) wouldn't care or c) would get annoyed that i'm complaining about everything and pointlessly taking up his valuable time... but when i actually talk to him about it, he's usually really supportive. anyone have any tips on how to get over this awful feeling?? it's like i don't feel "worthy" enough to have someone listen to what i need to say. i feel like i'm "in the way" if i'm talking about myself too much or something. so i never talk about anything that's bothering me. and because i feel so alone in everything, i'm convinced that things can't improve. help???
mondays suck.
i live 2 hours away from home when i'm here at school... but i like to go home when i can, usually on weekends... family and boyfriend are there.
problem is, i NEVER get anything done on weekends when i'm there... and by monday when i'm back at school i'm realizing how much crap needs to get done for the week. ughhh. but i can't bring myself NOT to go home on weekends because i hate the idea of not seeing my boyfriend for a while
february is, to top it all off, the busiest month of the school year... i'm under a lot of pressure right now and i feel like i'm on the verge of falling apart... i know it's an uphill battle from here till the end of the school year in April (at which point, i'll be done my undergrad degree, which is exciting) and it's so hard to bring myself to just get things done. i'm sick of it all. i just want to go home and hide under a blanket
it's also hard for me to talk about all this with people - i constantly feel like i don't deserve to be heard, like if i were to talk to my boyfriend about my stress he a) wouldn't understand or b) wouldn't care or c) would get annoyed that i'm complaining about everything and pointlessly taking up his valuable time... but when i actually talk to him about it, he's usually really supportive. anyone have any tips on how to get over this awful feeling?? it's like i don't feel "worthy" enough to have someone listen to what i need to say. i feel like i'm "in the way" if i'm talking about myself too much or something. so i never talk about anything that's bothering me. and because i feel so alone in everything, i'm convinced that things can't improve. help???
mondays suck.