I always feel like I settle for people who aren't even my type

[sorat116]

Well hopefully she will put mind over matter eventually.. it's definitely a learning process.

I'm okay I think I've just been dating far too much this past year as a result of never dating in high school.. seems like I stop talking to one guy I'm with the next guy pops into my life somehow.. been that way all this year and I think I've burnt myself out and I need a break.

But my question is: isnt everyone really settling? I know my mom settled for my Dad.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

I dont think so.
My parents had been married for almost 40 yrs.
I dont think they settle.

My eldest sister had been married to her HS sweetheart for over 25 yrs.
They knew each other since middle school. So they were in love
forever.

Alot of my friends had been married for a long time too.
They didnt get married until thier late 20s.

My situations with Sassy is unfortunate. I knew her since I was
a teenger. We love each other alot. Thats why we keep trying
over and over again. She drove over 1500 miles to be with
me when we got back together again. So that's alot on her part
to be willing to do that. We're both very passionate people.

I left other women to be with her. I was actaully dating someone
for 6 months before Sassy and i decided to give it another go.

We saperated again last summer. Then someone else poped
right into my life.lol
I actaully broke up with this other girl..because that exactly
how I felt...I was settling. I didnt think it was fair for her
because I didnt truely love her. She caught me on a rebound.
I didnt do all those things for her that i would do for Sassy.

I didnt even know Sassy was going to talk to me again because
she drove back to TX..1500 miles away from me. I simply couldnt
do that to this girl anymore. She's actaully very pretty and very nice.
But I wasnt in love with her. No goose bumps...no butterfly in my stomuch.
So i just broke it off with her. She was hurted...but the longer we
stayed together she would had been more hurted and perhasp
start hating me.

So I moved to LA...then another person poped right into my life.lol
I never expected to meet her either. She's very pretty and very
nice. She had to same good quality in her that i like about Sassy.

But I was still very much in love with Sassy. As much
as i was trying to move on. A big part of me was still
wanting to be with Sassy. Ive never gotten over her.
Then Sassy got a hold of me again.We reconciled
So i drove 1500 miles to TX to be with her again.
I let go of 3 other women to be with her.
I wasnt lonely or desperate.
I just love very much....

Idk...if I just have a very very bad case of being in a toxic relationship.
Sassy and I saperated again. Very painful.
We were still talking and wanted to be together again even after I came back to CA..
Just recently. She calls me everyday. I cant stop loving her. I also know Sassy needs
help and treatment in order for her to have anytype of stable life and relationship.
So I made her hate me cuase I cant stop loving her.

i probalby need a break from all of this relationship stuff too.lol
Cause that's all Im doing...meeting different girls and wasting time.
Im actaually almost at a burn out.