I do it to myself!

[ihabl]

I feel lonely but I like being alone. Last night I went to a Bible Study. Even though I'm an introvert I went but I had to motivate myself to go. I enjoy the people and especially the Bible discussion but after a few hours I really wanted to go home. There is something tonight that I could have gone to but I didn't want to go, I just wanted a quiet night home. I have been like this as long as I could remember. I remember even in junior high and high school I would be at some sort of social function and I couldn't wait until my mom or dad would pick me up or when I could drive figuring out the best time I could leave. Most of the time I would look forward to the weekends so I could be away from people. Yet, I complain how alone I was and how much I missed out on. I suppose if I were to do it over again I wouldn't change much, I would have pushed myself more but to be truthful I get bored with most people, it's the small talk I suppose. Anyways, can anyone relate?

 

[Tiina63]

Yes, I can relate. Small talk is often dull, but it can be very hard to know how to move forward from it onto a deeper and potentially more rewarding connection. It is hard to know when is the right time to do this or if the other person even wants a more substantial discussion or if they just want a light conversation.
Also, enjoying a social event for a while (as you do with your Bible Study) and then wanting to go home is a typical introvert trait, as is not wanting to go out two nights on the run.
Having to push yourself to go out when a chance comes is something I often have to do as well. I can look forward to something, then when it comes part of me is tempted to stay at home. Generally I make myself go and am usually glad that I did.