ok, so I just went browsing the internet and decided to check out other forums, I wont name which one but I will say its a 'Christian' based one that I clicked on. I grew up attending Christian school and church occasionally. I believe in God. What I don't understand is... why are 'most' of the girls that claim to be Christian so much more......(how do i say this tactfully).... lol .........(thinking)...... I've found them to be more "desperate" in thier attempts at getting male attention. I think thats the best way I could have worded that.
I noticed it all throughout school, I noticed it in youthgroups growing up, I notice it in church services that the ones that claim the most about themself wear the least amount of clothing and act the wildest and most sexually playful in public. I was innocently browsing this other site and they had a button to click that said 'random member profile' so I clicked it.... and I get...... ****s. like what the heck? am I looking at porn? seriously..... I haven't seen in other profiles in normal chat circumstances as much skin as I see in church services or on Christian websites. Its really sad. it offends me more than seeing regular ****s because they are suposively upholding some image thats supposed to be like.... holy and .... modest..... and they wear the most low cut short skirts they can find like its a contest and no one ever tells them its inappropriate for a church service to wear a mini skirt with your thong chilin in the back because they don't want to offend anyone.
Its not all church women that are like this, there are ones that dress modestly with good taste and are still fashionable and look beautiful. (theres ones with really old fashioned style too/not anything i'd want to wear) I'm just a little tired of the unmodest dressing and extreme desperation that I find at these church functions. It makes me not want to attend. I haven't attended in months and haven't had the desire to. Last time I was surrounded by a group of "Christian" people was at a party held at my sisters house. All of these people were regular attenders at the church they had been attending for years and years, no one was a newcomer to the church. I felt more judged, more ridiculed, and more uneasy and self concious at this gathering than I do when I'm around a buncha average everyday people. It was as if it was a big contest to see who can get the most attention. Women were walking around with tops so low that you could see thier bras and one of them had a crusifix necklace and Jesus got stuck in her cleavage, like she was pulling him out, seriously lol. It makes me sad like, I don't think Jesus should get stuck in cleavage LOL.
The people at this party were so destructive of the house and so loud and obnoxious that neighbors came over to politely ask if we could be more quiet, of course that was a big joke to them, how rude! Also they got into a food fight pretty much wrecking the floors and carpeting for my sister to have to clean up later not to mention wasting the food she bought. It was such a mess and they didn't even help or offer to help clean it up. I've been to other parties before lotsa times and I've never seen such wild odd behaviors as those parties, these people just seem so much more rude and judgemental.
So anyway, this 'random member profile' that came up, I couldn't even see what she actually looked like. It was her nose down into her ****s with an extreme low cut top with her bra hanging out of it. like wtf. Theres a place for ****s to hang out, that shouldn't be one of those places in my opinion. LOL why is it easier and more fun to hang out with regular people than it is with 'most' (not all) religious people? I thought that people who knew Jesus's love are supposed to be more loving and more forgiving and more accepting and stuff like that? Why is it always the opposite? From my lifetime of experiences it has always been the opposite. After 10 years of attending Christian school I decided to give public school a try because I was having such a hard time with the Christian school kids bullying me, I was expecting public school to be worse but at least it'd be a new set of kids and maybe I could hide.
I was so shocked to find out that public school kids have better things to do then to find and single out someone for being painfully shy and slightly fat. If you leave them alone, they leave you alone. It was so cool. I was so shocked that I could actually go to school and not live in worry of getting cornered and beat up or spit on by lovely Christian school kids. lol it just pisses me off. I just don't understand the need for the big competition here. If you want to let your ****s hang out, let your ****s hang out but don't get Jesus stuck in your cleavage.
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