I took it so personally that it angered me.

[Naizo]

When my ex and I first split up I asked every girl I knew if they wanted to hang out or literally anything. I even went as far as straight out asking strangers if they wanted to just have ***. Of course that didnt work out for me. And after that phase I started to finf that nobody wanted a relationship. As I desperately asked anyone,trying to put anyone in my head but her. To this day she remains the last person to hold me in such a way.

I lost friends because I took it personally when they said they didnt want a relationship and I actually got angrier and angrier, at myself because I thought I was un attractive. And the only compliments I had to rely on were from the woman who called me boring, distant, when she decided she didnt want to be with me. She hoped to remain friends because she and I were very good friends but seeing her love someone else destroyed my confidence. Made me feel worthless. I acted so selfish for a time and easily drove her out of my life entirely. Along with her daughter and son who I had come to love as my own. Ive since told myself. Just because she didnt want me, doesnt mean nobody ever will. People change. Grow apart. Attraction dwindles. I dont expect anyone to stay out of obligation. It would be unfair on my part. To ask somone to be unhappy and unfulfilled just so I dont feel alone.

Be yourself, someone will be crazy enough for all of us one day. Hopefully.

 

[ladyforsaken]

I know what you mean, Naizo. When my last relationship didn't work out, it made me wonder if it was because I was undesirable in every way. Logically I knew that because someone else was involved, perhaps things just sparked between them and that it's not any of my fault. But there was always that nagging voice in my head telling me that I was not good enough, I was not desirable enough and that I wasn't able to fulfill what he needed in the relationship. I felt like I was not worthy enough for him to want to be faithful. It really brought me down.

It never angered me though. It just made me really sad and insecure, about myself and about people in general.

 

[Naizo]

Yeah exactly. Thank you for your thoughts.

 

[handheart]

Dont go in depresion calm down .When you broke from someone that you love its hard to be in a new relationship so fast
Also try to not be so fast because women they not like disperate persons and you also seems disperate and you dont want that