Remedy said:Lurker.In.The.Night said:Maybe you need to be treated for depression...
Maybe I need to be completely erased from existence because my life has no meaning. I have already been treated for depression before but thanks for the heads up......
People keep telling me to get my ged but with what money? I'm trying to get a job, so I can get money to get my ged. It's like I said no one is hiring, so what do I do? I'm just this way online but maybe that's why people don't like me. I fail at everything I do or try anymore. I was just meant to be a failure and a loser at life. I can't do anything right and make other people's live's miserable. Maybe I should of been created oblivious to everything around me because this is doing me no good. Everyone here probably dislikes me by now and they have every right to dislike me.
I am a worthless human being. I might have been kind and nice all my life. I have been rather comforting for others throughout my life and always postive for them. I have never been that way with myself or given myself a chance because I AM a ******* failure who doesn't deserve one ounce of respect. I am stupid, annoying, ugly, negative about myself, and its the reason most of my friends stopped being my friends.
Most of them now have meaning in their lives and I have jack ****. I just got done telling my friend that I dropped out of high school because he didn't know. I wouldn't be surprised if he thought much less of me,thought I was completely stupid, weak, or stopped talking to me for awhile. No one and I repeat no one wants to be around a self critical human being. I've been trying to change that but something always comes up to make me feel like **** again. Most of the time it being my friends joking that I'm gay or making some indirect virgin jokes. Nobody offline lately like they have in the past have tried to get to know me. They just act like I'm not even there and maybe its to painful to look or even talk to me.
I sometimes wish I had the courage to just be rid of everything sometimes but I'm to weak for that. No one here wants to hurt my feelings but I probably am really to hard to be around. Like I said I'm not like this everywhere, its just the frustrations I vent here and online. I don't know I'm just feeling a ton of pain at the moment even if things don't seem that significant. They are to me though. I consistently whine, have no one but a few people around, and I'm just to weak. I will never achieve what I want in life, I will never accept it, and this is why I am pathetic.
Hey man,
I'm really sorry to hear you're feeling this bad about life. I'm not saying I know what you're feeling, but I've been in some pretty bad places too - like really bad - and recently. I found this page because I'm feeling really **** right now. But it helps me to try to help myself and that is how I'm here.
One thing I notice about myself is that I spend a lot of time up in my head thinking and rethinking things. It is a problem for me. I've tried a lot of different ways of dealing with it too: drinking, other partying, doing some crazy things like disappearing on people for times and stuff.
Recently because I've been having a really up and down time, I found something that seems to help without the negative side-effects of my other past "remedies".
I tried yoga and it really helped. I don't know if you've tried it before but it is an amazing way to stop that overthinking I was talking about (I'm not sure but it sounds to me that you do it too, at least a bit).
And you feel great after. Like really great. Not just physically, but it feels like the world is a better place. Seriously. And you know, you don't have to be a new age flake to do it. I'm not. Really it is just exercise, and connecting with your body that makes you feel good about yourself and the world.
Look up some free yoga videos online. I do this one called Sivananda yoga. It's pretty good. I don't really know any others but this has helped me a lot.
Please give it a try. And I hope you feel better soon. You deserve to feel good.
Matt