Don't worry, this is not an "I am going to off myself" post, but merely me trying to mitigate my rage.
I'm the nice guy, throughout most of my life, this is how people see me - a resource to use when it's comfortable for them and it
drives me insane, as If my mere existence is to please the ass holes in my life.
Just yesterday, I started a new job and 1 of my acquaintances(who claims to be my friend) gave me a call bashing me for not taking on his offer to join him
at his office, and then someone else started to ask me some help after not even giving me a freaking phone call for years, asking me to help find a job, and there also the women in the past that screwed me over....
Yesterday I got so mad that when the third guy asking for some **** called me, I told him "Listen to me, I am in emotional roller coaster for the last few months, I nearly lost my mom few months ago, a woman played me for a year, I left my job and I'm getting professional help so fix your on damn problem and leave me the **** alone"
all of the sudden that guy was so into helping me out, he is a good friend of mine but still it gets me out of my mind knowing that I need to be furious and depressed till people around me give me a ******* break and seek others for help, ****.
sorry about the rant guys, I just can't help it anymore, I'm sick of people using me .
I'm the nice guy, throughout most of my life, this is how people see me - a resource to use when it's comfortable for them and it
drives me insane, as If my mere existence is to please the ass holes in my life.
Just yesterday, I started a new job and 1 of my acquaintances(who claims to be my friend) gave me a call bashing me for not taking on his offer to join him
at his office, and then someone else started to ask me some help after not even giving me a freaking phone call for years, asking me to help find a job, and there also the women in the past that screwed me over....
Yesterday I got so mad that when the third guy asking for some **** called me, I told him "Listen to me, I am in emotional roller coaster for the last few months, I nearly lost my mom few months ago, a woman played me for a year, I left my job and I'm getting professional help so fix your on damn problem and leave me the **** alone"
all of the sudden that guy was so into helping me out, he is a good friend of mine but still it gets me out of my mind knowing that I need to be furious and depressed till people around me give me a ******* break and seek others for help, ****.
sorry about the rant guys, I just can't help it anymore, I'm sick of people using me .