it just occurred to me, i am a ******* *******

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Trent

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lol

but i should expound.

i've always been a late bloomer and a slow learner.

i was the kid in class that figured out how to do the math problem days after everybody else already got it.

but soon enough, i was better, and had reverse engineered the numbers in my own fashion and attained a level of mastery far above most of my peers.

there are countless examples that follow this same theme throughout my life.

for years, i've looked on in amazement at the ******** all around me and wondered "how DO they DO it?"

i've mimicked assholery over the years from time to time, but only with mixed to fair results.

as of late though, a convergence of circumstances and their associated stimuli have given me that nudge toward mastery.

i've got this.

i've finally got it down.

now i pass ******** on the street, or in the store, or even in my personal life or work life, and i'm not the least bit impressed.

why?

because i'm actually a bigger and better *******.

i know, it shocked me too!

now i've got to see just how far i can push this thing. i have to admit i am having fun dishing it back out in buffet-sized propotions with iron chef-like presentation!

if there were a UFC of Assholery, i would be like royce gracie.

(i know, ancient reference, but i'm a big fan of gracie jiu jitsu)

woohoo!

Royce-comemora-vitoria-no-UFC-1-em-foto-de-Susumu-Nagao.jpg
 
Callie said:
shesafrozenfire said:
or maybe this is more your speed:


Denis Leary, "*******"

I love this one :D


Denis is the man. :)




But, back to the OP.

Instead of ******* with the ******** in your life, why don't you just drop them. Put them on "real ignore" and move on. If you let them piss you off to the point that you have to change who you are fundamentally, well then you've just let the ******** win.

Congratulations.
 
Somehow becoming a bigger ******* makes you feel more in control of stuff. If you out ******* people, no one can push you around.

I get it.

If you're the monster , then there's nothing left to really fear.

Then again monsters usually get stabbed and killed since they do stupid stuff.
 
SophiaGrace said:
Somehow becoming a bigger ******* makes you feel more in control of stuff. If you out ******* people, no one can push you around.

I get it.

If you're the monster , then there's nothing left to really fear.

Then again monsters usually get stabbed and killed since they do stupid stuff.

can't argue with that.

that makes sense.

i had this dream, that i was paralyzed, and a demon was under my bed, and he was telekinetically pulling me off the bed and under.

instead of being scared.

i had a psychotic grin and laughed and said "what the **** are you waiting for?" and then woke up.

be. the. monster.
 
Trent said:
SophiaGrace said:
Somehow becoming a bigger ******* makes you feel more in control of stuff. If you out ******* people, no one can push you around.

I get it.

If you're the monster , then there's nothing left to really fear.

Then again monsters usually get stabbed and killed since they do stupid stuff.

can't argue with that.


Is the glory of going out in a hail of bullets worth the price of being an *******?
 
I dont think it's such a bad thing....

In HS physcology class for some stupid reason personality or mulity personality
was discuss. So i ran in my head the notion mulity personlity is a disorder.

Years later. I took a course and work shop in healing. Lots of discussions
why adults like me were fucken up in the head.
A simple sentence was read and it got a little bit heated.lmao
" Im capiable of being as nice as Jesus as I am capiable of being a ruthless as Hitler"

Kind of like that Shakespeare quote from the movie..The post man...
Something about being a son of a bitch like a lion and let it all hang out
when you go into battle....but when you live in peace..you can be very loving
and gental.

Selective Assholism ...I guess.
So it's more of a defencsive mechanism when there's lots of testosterone in the air.

Knowing this helps when dealing with women or abusive people towards me....
They're selective too.
I know women are selective of being a bitch towards me..if they dont like
me or just simply want to keep a bounday between them and me....
But can turn around and be very sweet to a person they like or wish to be with.

I bascailly do the same...selective of just being an ******* towards certain
people i wish nothing to do with.

Bascailly had to turn into a major ******* to break off certain relationship
that just into a very toxic cycle. The hatred she feels toward me...keeps
her away. Its not that i dont love her....I do. But its' not going to work
on the ****** marry go round.
 
Yes if you are an ******* you hurt people and hurting others can inflame a lot of hatred and emnity. Or being an ******* can inflame, a feeling of rivalry, and other people wil be on your ass to try to top YOU.

Or something.

Assholery is fraught with tension because of this I think.

So even though you are the monster in the closet and don't have to fear anyone anymore, there are still consequences i suppose.
 
SophiaGrace said:
Yes if you are an ******* you hurt people and hurting others can inflame a lot of hatred and emnity. Or being an ******* can inflame, a feeling of rivalry, and other people wil be on your ass to try to top YOU.

Or something.

Assholery is fraught with tension because of this I think.

So even though you are the monster in the closet and don't have to fear anyone anymore, there are still consequences i suppose.


A true ******* doesn't care if there are consequences. Anyone can act assholish on occasion; that doesn't make him an *******, just as someone can be bitchy and not necessarily a bitch.

You have to weed out the true ******** from those who are just having a bad day.
 
when i was 19 years old, i discovered the most hurtful sentence that a human can speak.

it is three words.

this phrase is devoid of vulgarity, or curse words, or threats...

it is simple. powerful.

the sentence:

i don't care.

it makes you a prick to say it.

it makes you an ******* to think it.

it makes you a god to mean it.

lol
 
Lmao....

I been using the sedana methdoe as a healing tool...or letting go.
You basically let go to the piont of not giving a hoot anymore....sugar coat version
of saying ....I dont care or i dont give a ****.
 

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