lonelyness...u dont know how hard it it

[Lil-Shy-711]

hi im going to call my self "lil shy" i found this forum cuz i thought that maybe pplz would understand how i feel,

its been allmost a year without much human contact, i use the computer n its not the same like talking to someone in front of u, ive been alone for so long,
i guess im looking for friends that dont judge other or use them.

i havnt been out with friends, jezz even at work i dont talk to anyone, just do what they want done (im a freelancer) then i leave,

i havnt gone to the point of hear voice in my head (yet) i thought maybe this would help me, i dont now how to start with this.........

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ive been alone for awhile now, same things every day, since im a freelance i work my own hours n open free to what every work that needs to be done, but i dont really talk or know how to talk to ppl, n when i do talk im allways cut off, friends in my home town dont even want to hang out with me, or visit me, i havnt had a visiter for allmost 7 months, the only ppl that do talk to me is my bothers, sister n father, but even they dont want to hang out with me, i guess im just a discarded piece of trash, i tryed killing my self may times before but something allways stops me or someone, i had 5 near death exp since i was a child, n a few just a few years ago n one not to long ago, but for some reason i aways had this feeling there more to life, but im losing that feeling,

 

[hopsfox]

Hello Lil shy and welcome to ALL. Hang out with us at the ALL chat too. There is! more to life. You have to figure out how to get there, maybe with a lil help.

 

[Grey]

I suppose i'm sort of the same, only people i talk to in person is my family, don't have friends and i haven't had any for years. Don't even have that many friends online, i did once. I met my boyfriend online so thats one good thing in my life. All i do is sit in my room and watch tv or listen to music everyday. I know how it feels.

 

[ningtv]

i also as you... but me can skip and see it is normal and you also can to do as me

 

[Romantic_Flower]

yeah man, loneliness sucks. But you'll never be fully alone as long as you have yourself. So love yourself, find your hidden qualities. If you dont love yourself, no one will. I'm not saing that loving yourself will bring you a lot of friends... but it's better for your welfare, for your mind. AT least that's what I do. And if people judge you, they don't deserve your friendhsip. Judging is the most insane act people do nowdays, so just dont lose your time with people like that! If you need anything, PM me

 

[Gutted]

Welcome to ALL young lady! We're here to talk and help in any way that we can. I hope that you can cheer up. Keep it together and we will be able to help! I think you could help us plenty too ^_^

 

[Lil-Shy-711]

thanks for the support its just boring day in n day out, i would prefur to sleep it's the only place that i can be someone n talk to pplz that wont judge or anything, its my own lil world, inside my head that i can be what ever i want to be

 

[MadMonkè]

or you can walk outside... and be one with nature. shes always good company...
you may find others who are doing the same. not always.. sometimes.
they can be friendly... sometimes friendlier than the occupants in our heads...
you may find an injured animal that needs nursing or just a funny tree worthy of a pic...

after whatever may happen, you will feel empowered to do whatever you want
That is... according to my experience.... smoking pot kinda helps with the experience... but I am not pushing that... it just works for me.

 

[Romantic_Flower]

I have a friend... His name is The Sorrow.... yeah yeah.
here's one thing that it worked well on me.Make your sadness be your happiness, and you happiness be your sadness.
In a short, learn how to love loneliness and how to hate the opposite of loneliness...
It sucks, but it's the only soulution i've found