I'm kind of surprised by the ammount of replies on here, and also by the time some of you guys took to write it.
First things first, LoneKiller and Ladyforsaken. I completely understand the anger you guys might feel, know that i'm not doing this to spite you or anyone else. Lady, we'll still talk on skype when possible, and LoneKiller, i'll send you a message soon for some form of contact.
Mike, yeah, people dislike change, and so do i, i suppose. However it's something different from just disliking what the forum has become. I mean, look at this, after one day there are 22 replies, safe for a couple all of them are caring and warm. It's all still here. However it's more the way i feel with it, and, more importantly, that i feel i cannot efficiently achieve my goal on here anymore. I need to break away. If anything, that is inconsistency in that i don't stay with this forum all the way through until i reached that goal. But i of course understand where you're coming from, and there is, of course, some truth to it.
This is also why i don't feel like staying to make the change happen, i thought about that alot. But, call me selfish, my purpose is all that keeps me from going back to the suicidality, and apart from that, it's very, very, important to me, and i will die before giving that up.
But still, BrokenInside, i liked the story you gave, that made me smile. I'll be sure to stay in touch with you through means other than the forum, not going to leave you behind.
Thanks Veruca, i appreciate the compliment. It's kind of funny to see how the people closer to me are all proposing for me to come back at some point, and seem almost convinced that this'll happen, while the people who don't really know me are more like "kthxbai". If all goes well i won't come back, if things change and i need to change my plan, i might come back. It's good to know i'd be warmly welcomed here by you guys, apart from a few people, but that's bound to happen anywhere.
Yes, i realise that this is probably the most kind and nice forum out there, and that it'll be nigh impossible to look for another one with similiar people. Then again, if i'd have to look for a forum with similar people i might as well be staying here. I guess i'll be looking for something different, and i honestly don't really expect this forum search to succeed, i have already planned what to do when that fails.
Everything will work out in the end.
