Aias
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Hi, I'm a newb.
Lets see.. I've been alone almost ALL of my life, although until recently it hadn't bothered me much.. I've met people over the internet to try and flex my social muscles, I've been online for a looong time, and after meeting a lot of people, I can call about 3 of them friends, only one of which actually makes me smile.
Since I've been online, everyone is either a jerk, arrogant, slutty or just plain stupid.. And its not just on the internet anymore.. If I look out to any place or situation I can notice the imperfections in the egos of the masses.
Every guy or girl I've met has turned out to be very.. Self satisfying; And whats worse is that none of them think they are, or see what they do wrong.. I'm starting to think everyone is like this.. Even my 3 friends are like this.
I don't like associating with people that need to satisfy their ego in order to feel valid.. Especially the women, seeing as how they fall into sexual or perverted styles and humor types in order to feel "sexy" or "pretty".
Even if I'm doing it now by simply looking for someone I can actually trust, I'm only doing it because I need to feel like things aren't hopeless.
I'm really starting to think I'm supposed to be alone.. And the fear of being completely alone for the rest of my life is enough to drive me to look for other people.
If anyone out there can relate to anything I just said, please let me know, I seriously need to be around some of my own kind..
Lets see.. I've been alone almost ALL of my life, although until recently it hadn't bothered me much.. I've met people over the internet to try and flex my social muscles, I've been online for a looong time, and after meeting a lot of people, I can call about 3 of them friends, only one of which actually makes me smile.
Since I've been online, everyone is either a jerk, arrogant, slutty or just plain stupid.. And its not just on the internet anymore.. If I look out to any place or situation I can notice the imperfections in the egos of the masses.
Every guy or girl I've met has turned out to be very.. Self satisfying; And whats worse is that none of them think they are, or see what they do wrong.. I'm starting to think everyone is like this.. Even my 3 friends are like this.
I don't like associating with people that need to satisfy their ego in order to feel valid.. Especially the women, seeing as how they fall into sexual or perverted styles and humor types in order to feel "sexy" or "pretty".
Even if I'm doing it now by simply looking for someone I can actually trust, I'm only doing it because I need to feel like things aren't hopeless.
I'm really starting to think I'm supposed to be alone.. And the fear of being completely alone for the rest of my life is enough to drive me to look for other people.
If anyone out there can relate to anything I just said, please let me know, I seriously need to be around some of my own kind..
