unlucky in life
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[size=small]i am 29 year female living at home with my mother and father we are farmers.
my father is very old fashioned likes living on the land isolated with cattle and sheep and horses,that life ok when i was child now i hate it.he is still telling what to do how to run my lack of life like i was 5 years again some times i feel that way some time he catches like you child up by the arm and throwing outside the door like 5 year old.he calls me names he never any thing nice to say to me it put downs and not much eles.
i try to get in city beside the beach would be dream of mine but no would give me job.i was school outcast and outcast in secondary school and collage i though collage would my ticket out but i failed exams twice i failed my leaving once .i have Facebook with no friends what so ever to talk to by night.my computer is only friend.i never had boyfriend to speak of in my entire believed i try getting one but all i got was cold hard rejection and insults.and cuts ups like my da worthless hopeless not if you last women on earth i would go out with you
i try to committed suicide at 24 years old i failed there too. i have
in out to psychlogist since i was 6 year old all because i wouldn.t talk in class.i also got physical abused at school by the boys and verbal abused by the girls.i was vivously attack at 24 years old trapped inside a room two drunk lads i was staying with try to kick the door down.i was psyclogical screwed up yet they told i was to blame.
i was facebook to guy i get the same verbal abuse while i am misery he living the good life i am liviing in misery with father i abously hate living with he selfish ******* and bully.all i do is feel bad and cry and i see other get every thing the freedom to do what they i can't my father is still telling me what to do.i have no say in what i can do and how do i it .
the guy who blacked me facebook has a life i can only dream about it and yet he complains i hate him for that.he hasn't got clue to what nasty horrible life i hope one day will relise life is hard and tough and and to be rotten to less frotnate like me who has nothing not freedom to think for my self.the guy on Facebook has everything to long list to mention you know what i mean good looking,popular, traveled all over the world ,tons of friends,great body,smart ,tall 6ft , tanned perfect teeth,invited every where every day ,stunning girlfriends,he never refused by any one and love by every one but me.lives on sun kissed holiday resort. and yet he complains he has no life he drives me mad he has no idea how hard life is for others like me he complaied to me he had no life i am with no life none at all. of course he grew up living in holiday resort i grew up in isolated town with no one to talk to bu my self .
life is so unfair some people get every thing others get nothing but rotten existed it so not fair [/size]
You've been to that many? Don't take this the wrong way but the problem might be you. Let me explain, you've become so accustom to this life that you've accepted it even if you hate it. It's natural to you because it's been the way you were raised. Psychologists can only do so much, they can't help those who don't want to help themselves. You have to be the one to break free of the cycle of abuse, you have to be the one who wants to make a change. You can't expect others to do it for you, they can help and guide you but it's you who has to do the real work. The hard, difficult work, or else you'll be stuck right where you are for the rest of your life. It might seem difficult to do and frightening not knowing what in the heck you are going to do if you just pack up and leave.
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