Icarus North said:I'm noticing that I'm somewhat going backwards in my life. Like how I use to be a mute when I was very young and bullied often, and now I don't talk at all unless someone talks to me. My shyness gets in the way and I have slight claustrophobia when it comes to crowds, so yeah I am usually alone. And I hate it, I don't like being alone but I just have to deal with it. It's worse at night, always is and I just...I'm not sure how to handle it anymore. I think that maybe I should go back and see my counselor but I don't know. I just don't know right now.
Lena said:I hate my life. I can't stand ANYTHING.
I wish I'd never been born, this sucks.
perfanoff said:When my own mother shouts at me on the phone for wanting to live a decent life instead of spending my money and living in misery for the next month wondering what to eat or to beg friends for money.. after I called her out of goodwill.. I got burned again. Well every time I speak with her, I feel verbally abused. God I ******* hate down to my GUTS that imperative mood she uses. I haven't felt so alone in the world in a long time. Even cigarettes are not my friend anymore. I can't trust anyone emotionally.. or to understand.. I've talked with some of my best friends a bit about it and I already feel like I am burdening them too much with my problems. After all they have theirs too, and people more central to them. But I can't even feel that my immediate family shares any kind of life with me. Many people think I'm born lucky but in what matters most I can't really say fate has smiled on me so far..
I'm going to get over the cigarettes and I will stop feeling so lonely but I know that my real situation will not change.. I will just keep moving on and telling myself my life is awesome or that awesome is just around the corner. FML..
bodeilla said:Not feeling safe to post on this forum anymore. I feel belittled. Demoralized. Insignificant. Unimportant.
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