Self-Haters Club

[cumulus.james]

Oh I think you've forgotten that I can post wherever I like.

I thought you might come back with a defensive statement lol. i was trying to be diplomatic.

Diplomacy is telling someone where they can and cannot post on an open forum?

Aww don't get at me, I'm a drunk loner who does not know how to mix with people, its not fair!

 

[EveWasFramed]

No grills allowed please.

No grills. Lol

No worries James. That was the one and only post Id have made in your thread - I'm not out to derail it. Carry on.

 

[cumulus.james]

No grills allowed please.

No grills. Lol

No worries James. That was the one and only post Id have made in your thread - I'm not out to derail it. Carry on.

go comment on my new thread I want to know if I was ugly or not.

 

[Nicolelt]

I read through part of the conversation, but going back to the OP, I have times of self-hate. I get so frustrated with myself and how much of an idiot I am. Then it escalates into me not liking my looks and other things about myself. Last night I felt so bad, I just broke down and started crying. My boyfriend was there, and it makes it worse because he wants to help and I struggle to explain the problem to him.

 

[Triple Bogey]

I've never hated myself. In fact I think I am great !

 

[cumulus.james]

I've never hated myself. In fact I think I am great !

I've allways hated myself, I think I am ****.

 

[Triple Bogey]

I've never hated myself. In fact I think I am great !

I've allways hated myself, I think I am ****.

sorry to hear about that

 

[cumulus.james]

Why wont anyone look at my other thread? I am an actual real person you know?

 

[EveWasFramed]

Why wont anyone look at my other thread? I am an actual real person you know?

A few did.

 

[cumulus.james]

no one replied.

Guess I was allways a grotesque.

 

[EveWasFramed]

http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=33185

If you mean that thread, three people have replied there.

 

[SophiaGrace]

http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=33185

If you mean that thread, three people have replied there.

4 now

I answered honestly too.

'tis the honest to Gods truth.

 

[lonelydoc]

I don't think I hate myself, because I hate other people so much. Only room for so much hate in one brain.

 

[cumulus.james]

http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=33185

If you mean that thread, three people have replied there.

I was drunk lol must have forgot to subscribe.

Tend to get irrational towards the end of my nights booze too.

 

[ardour]

Confused - self-hate or self-pity under the guise of hate?

If you genuinely hate yourself I don't see why you would focus on it. Seems like all it would do is put you in stasis and make life more difficult.

 

[cumulus.james]

Confused - self-hate or self-pity under the guise of hate?

If you genuinely hate yourself I don't see why you would focus on it. Seems like it all it would do is put you in stasis and make life more difficult.

I have allways hated myself. But I ran out of ways to distract myself from that now. So it is all that is left.

 

[lonelyfairy]

I don't hate myself but there are things about myself which I dislike a lot. Hate is such a strong word and I don't like to use it... I have a bad self-esteem, but I believe it's only temporary.

 

[Erevetot]

Confused - self-hate or self-pity under the guise of hate?

If you genuinely hate yourself I don't see why you would focus on it. Seems like it all it would do is put you in stasis and make life more difficult.

my personal opinion/experience is that its not something you control. I dont wake up and say "hey, i got nothing to do, lets hate me". It's all the things i've done in the past that bring me to that point, all the things I rightfully blame on me, all the things that ruined me and my life. They pile up, and combined with sadness, anxiety, non-existant self esteem and my stupidity, it makes me hate me. Hate the person I've become, hate the way my life is going, hate everything about me. And yes, it makes it all more difficult. But what do you do when you hate someone? You confront them or cut any sort of contact with them. I cant do than with myself, I tried to let this part of me go, but i realized that that's the only part of me left.

 

[cumulus.james]

I don't hate myself but there are things about myself which I dislike a lot. Hate is such a strong word and I don't like to use it... I have a bad self-esteem, but I believe it's only temporary.

It is good that it is only temporary in your case.

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Confused - self-hate or self-pity under the guise of hate?

If you genuinely hate yourself I don't see why you would focus on it. Seems like it all it would do is put you in stasis and make life more difficult.

my personal opinion/experience is that its not something you control. I dont wake up and say "hey, i got nothing to do, lets hate me". It's all the things i've done in the past that bring me to that point, all the things I rightfully blame on me, all the things that ruined me and my life. They pile up, and combined with sadness, anxiety, non-existant self esteem and my stupidity, it makes me hate me. Hate the person I've become, hate the way my life is going, hate everything about me. And yes, it makes it all more difficult. But what do you do when you hate someone? You confront them or cut any sort of contact with them. I cant do than with myself, I tried to let this part of me go, but i realized that that's the only part of me left.

Couldn’t have put it better myself.

It makes life very difficult. For example I like doing advanced mathematics and reading. I can scarcely do either because for a start I can't concentrate. But I also feel like I am just pretending to be smart and that I am really stupid and deluding myself.

Anxiety drives me nuts. If I get any more tense I will have no neck and my shoulders will just be emerging from my ears.

 

[WallflowerGirl83]

Do I hate myself? No I don't think I'd go that far. Are there things that I dislike about myself? Maybe, there's just things that I need to work on myself cause I have low self esteem and I definitely have a lot of self pity sometimes but I wouldn't say I hate myself.