So I feel terrible...

[annik]

I tend to feel the same, it's really difficult to feel like the odd one out. I've been along to things where I've felt out of place, and there's a few social groups I'm sort of on the edge of - for instance there's a writing group I joined when it first started up a year and a half ago, and there's quite a few of the regulars click together naturally in a way I don't, for the most part. Hard to know what to say that's encouraging, other than that I know how you feel.

I get anxious thinking about what other people will be interested in - I go through spells when I think the things I'm interested in will be boring to everyone else, but it can be surprising when you sometimes click with someone over an interest you wouldn't have thought you had in common.

I actually came to this thread after seeing your posts in two other threads, seeing we had a few things in common, and looking through your other posts (sorry if that seems stalkerish, by the way...) and I'm sure there'll be plenty of other people who like the Manics, Oasis and Gene Wilder, not to mention whatever other interests you have.

I totally know how you feel, and feel the same quite often, so don't want to talk down your problems, but i think we quite often have more in common with people than we expect.

Yes thats completely the feeling. Firstly I hate being new anywhere because people all already know each other and you feel sort of on the outside. That's probably why I've made so many posts here already trying to settle in. I just find most places people are always talking about tv shows or films I have no interest in or books I don't read or bands I can't stand or games I know nothing about and its just hard to feel like you have anything to say or a way to get close to people.

Thing is I spent so many years trying to be different, did the whole goth thing, grunge thing. Hated anything fashionable. Of course what you realise when you grow up (which unfortunately I've done ) is that these trends aren't different at all they are just another way for everyone to be the same.

However that need to be different is still in me and sometimes it can make life a bit lonely and isolating.

Hmm I've found the Manics to be a slight marmite entity. The funniest thing about it is I actually joined a Manics forum and I didn't enjoy it! I also tried to bond with a girl on a different site over her Manicsy username and the first thing she said was really stuck up... Oh well.

Wow that's really impressive annik! Well done!

I should really get around to reading the classics.. I bet I'm missing out on so much =x

I actually really like edgar allan poe's work. A little chilling and strange with some of the things he writes, but he's so original and interesting to read. And his famous line "Deep into that darkness peering.... long I stood there... wondering...fearing...doubting". It creates so much suspense! He was really good at communicating his feelings and creating the mood.

I also like quite a few of Shakespeare's pieces, and Simon Armitage.

Shakespeare inspired me to write my own sonnet once in 10 minutes... I think it's one of the better pieces I've written, and maybe I'll post it when I'm feeling a little more confident =x

Do you have any writing you'd like to share? I'd love to see some!

Thanks

Oh yeah I love Poe. His poems as well as his stories. I will admit though Shakespeare is something I haven't read a lot of. Maybe only the odd one thats in a collection I've picked up. Because I wasn't seen as very bright at school I was in a low set (urgh) for English and subsequently my love of poetry and literature was not ignited until later and my influences have ended up coming from different places. Personally I love Plath, Emily Dickinson, Christina Rossetti, Pablo Neruda...

I do have lots but I'd have to dig it out. I used to have them saved on my old word processor (eek showing my age!) but now they are all over the place in folders and boxes. I'm not sure if I'd have the nerve to post them here though. :shy:

and I almost wet myself when

Wow I could have put that better...

 

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While I nodded .. nearly napping