Someone likes me? Really?

[Locke]

Yes. I found a old bottle of awful tasting rum in my cupboard, downed the 2 shots that were in it (yuk), chewed a breath mint and walked down to the store.

We talked for a few minutes, but she was busy. I said I'd meet her at the park in a couple hours. I was really wishing I had more rum at that point. I don't usually drink and hate using alcohol as a crutch but I was really nervous.

Anyway, I met her at the park and we talked for over an hour while we walked her dogs. I got the feeling that she liked me because I'm nice to people. But see, I use politeness as a deflection. She's seen me give a bum outside her store money, when I really just wanted the old guy to leave me alone. She saw me help a lady change a tire. It was raining and there was no one else, otherwise I wouldn't have.

I'm not that nice, just selfish. She's just tired of the many jerks that inhabit this area. I did okay, though. No panic attacks, my hands didn't shake much, and I only ran out of things to say 2 or 3 times.

I owe that in part to you guys. Thanks for the advice and encouragement. If some of you think I'm a dork, loser or idiot, that's fine too. I've thought worse about myself. Talking about it really helped me

 

[murmi97]

and I only ran out of things to say 2 or 3 times.

If she's an introvert, she probably didn't really mind. Companionate silence is a great thing to share with someone you like.

 

[Revengineer]

I don't see how any of those actions proves that you are selfish. You are willing to lend your time and resources to those in need. That's just being a decent human being. You'd be surprised how many people would have ignored them and went about their own business.

Give yourself some credit. Your new friend certainly does.

 

[Felix]

Congrats Locke! sounds like you did pretty good there.

 

[perfanoff]

Well Locke - thumbs up

 

[Locke]

Congrats Locke! sounds like you did pretty good there.

Well Locke - thumbs up

Thanks!

 

[duff]

hope it goes well for you !

 

[Dissident]

If anyone else was bothered by a homeless person, they would just tell the homeless person to **** off and threaten them. I'd know. You instead chose to give him money. Most people won't do that. With the tire, again, most people wouldn't bother. They would just keep walking, thinking that eventually someone else would do it, or that it's not their problem and thus a waste of time. You did it anyway.

Maybe your motives aren't exactly heroic in nature but you're at least selfless enough not to be an *******. That you're actively thinking about things instead of walking by without hesitation is probably what gets you the attention.