Feeling guilty about doing something is too much work. Guilt tighten up the grip even more, thereby keeping you
in the endless cycle...
If you're going to party, then really, really party.... FFS.
There's plenty of pothead chicks out there that will get high with ya, **** your brains out at the sametime and bring the weed too, for the love of god.
The reason why I stopped drinking and getting high was something I had to do for myself. It was my chioce. No one had to convince me.
Wheather it's legal drugs, prescribe drugs or alcohol. I choose not to put mood changing, mind altering substance into my system.
See....I don't do anything half ass or half measure when it come to my recovery either.
It's a charecter triat that I have. The defects are in the miss application or miss appropricate use of this triat.
I've accepted this part of me. I seized fighting it.
I can use it to work against me or work for me. The chioce is mine.
I didn't have a drinkig or getting high problem. I had a living problems.
Getting high or partying all the time to escape or cope....Checking the **** out.
Addiction is a cunning enemy of life, it's baffling and powerful.
You can't run forever.....
well..my bottom was this. I rather get high then get laid...that was really ****** up.
I was really one sick puppy to get to thaT piont.
I can't compair my bottom to your's...go as deep as you wanna go..I guess.
Getting clean and sober or being abstance was but a beinging...a very important beinging.
You can't put the buggie in front of the horse. First things first.
Being abstance never solved my living problems. However it gave me an opprotunity to work on my living problems more level headed.
It minimized or eliminated the negative consequences (side effects) that came with the territory of drug abuse.
I love Chelle very much. Losing her were some of the negative consequence I had to paid for the price of getting high.
I'm greatful she still loves me today and we have sometype of a loving relationship. It has been a long time just trying to
get back to this piont of my life. The wreckage and pains I've cuased in our lives isn't easy to repair.
Obviously..I didn't understand how much hurt I cuased Chelle...I was numb out of my fucken mind.
It's not rocket science...
Being a recoverying addict...I became more aware of the justifications and excuses I have for using.
mmm...I got really, really drunk on our wedding day....
I got totally shited face when we got a divorce.
It was her fualt...all her god damn fualt why our marriage didn't work. She was such a bitch....
I justified why I felt that way and blamed her too. Living in denial.
I'll fucken show her...
So I went out and moved in with 2 women that ****** my brains out and got totally **** faced with me everynight.
I don't need her...i don't need Chelle in my life. There's always going to be some woman or women standing in line "next".
However my duaghter is still my duaghter. She needed me from the moment she was borned.
Just like when Chellle needed her father...but he wasn't there.
Just like when I needed my father...but he wasn't there.
No Chelle is not perfect and I shouldn't take all of the blame...However I must still take ownership of my ********. I can't run from that anymore.
See...I think clearer today and feel better cuz I'm not numb anymore. I make better chioces today.
I'm my owe worst enemy...I'm also aware of this today too.
You can get high if you want. No one can stop you. It's your chioce...Just don't blame anyone or anything for the chioces you had made when it's time to pay up.
Obiviously most people wanna hit that pipe and check the **** out when it's time to pay. That'S where all the games, dramma and turama comes in...it gets progressive.
Of course every pothead say..."Not me, I'll never do that, it'll never happened to me, I'll never end up like thaT"
You'll rationalize it and continue to get high...until you've have had enough. And it's never enough.
You say other people use and it's okay...or you'll say other people drink alcohol and it's okay for them. You even you have a perscription for it and it's okay becuase
you have been certified and approved to ****** your life..so that must make it ok....
It's all fucken okay...it's just unhealthy as ****.
Have you ever though and wonder what was going through my mind and how it was for me when I was still getting high???
The same ******* thing you're thinking....been there done that.
Have you ever wonder that's why your fucken lonely to begin with and why you don't have women in your life. Being a pothead turns off a lot of chicks.
I mean who in hell wants to admit they're fucken pot heads??? I mean it's all fun and games until someone gets hurt or the cops show up.
aS a recoverying addict I say this "you can't ******** a bullshitter"
If you can drinking, use and do whatever the **** it is you do and still manage your life, live happily and healthy...More power to you.
Obviously, the MJ pushers wheather with a certificate (doctors) or illegal channels are going to promote it's usage.
It's a mulity billion dallor industry FFS. See... the MD's wife is a fcuken shrink too...it's a win win situations for them...you're just a fucken pond.
You going to buy MJ stickers, t-shirts, pipes, bongs being slick, hip and cool being a fucken billboard for them. Hello???? Their cousins fucken make grips of money this way too....
You're infected...man. **** it...tattoo a fucken leaf over your heart and become a lifer.
FFS..there's 6 billion people on this Planet...there's plenty of women out there for ya...
How in the **** did you get so narrow minded to start this thread...
Oh yeah...you fried your fucken brain...duh !!!!
I belive you lost your fucken mind.