AlexandraOcean
Active member
Nice to meet you!
I'm from the USA, I was born here and lived here all my life.
I'm older than I would like to be, but I was happy I was young when I was (1990s).
I don't think I'd like to be a kid in today's world as much.
I like that a lot of the stuff that I like today, was new back then and the feeling of getting to enjoy it with those I was close to. And I liked the feel of the world back then.
I feel like the world I grew up in, was in many ways, a better one, and I miss it every day.
Hobbies, interests, what I do in my free time, anything I'd say to describe myself:
Well, my ideal self would be good at creative things like my story-writing and rock 'n roll heroes. I wish I could do the kinds of things that I used to get a buzz from.
My actual self, what I actually do, is going back over my life and trying to understand how and why my life turned out like this, and trying to think my way out of repeating the same mistakes and patterns. Trying to understand myself so I can change on a deep level. Doing myself over again.
And I guess, depression. It's hard for me to have much energy or enthusiasm for anything, and it has been for some time now. This makes it hard for me to get to know people, which I very much would like to do, but I don't often have much to say because it's hard for me to get into anything. Nothing makes me feel that great anymore as long as I'm stuck in my problems. Discouragement/self-doubt has been something I have always struggled with in all areas of my life.
Interests:
Like I said, it's hard for me to really have those right now. But, I have been interested in things like Star Wars and other fandoms. I like my old toy collections. I like a lot of bands but the ones I keep returning to are Rancid (and really anything to do with Tim Armstrong) and the Smashing Pumpkins. I take pictures of insects when I can get a good shot on my camera on my phone. I like cars, my favorite being the Mustang. And animals, especially dogs - my favorite breed being the Golden Retriever. I grew up with one, and he really showed me how good life is with a dog.
Anyway, that's about all I can think of for now.
Love your love and interest of people. It's beautifulOld enough to know better, but young enough to try anyway.
Mum to our 15-year old son, happily married, living in the beautiful Maritimes, Canada in a rural, countryside setting in a circa 1866 house.
I work for a small online company that specializes in documenting and preserving family stories of people from all over the world. My working day consists of transcribing and editing audio interviews. It’s fascinating work! I’ve cried my eyes out listening to people and I’ve laughed my ass off - it can be incredbily emotional at times. Everyone has an interesting story to tell - no matter how ‘boring’ you think your life is, it’s really not to a stranger. Plus I get to cherry pick all the wonderful and thought-provoking wisdom that people want to leave their families and loved ones.
Other than that, I’m an AFOL (Adult Fan of LEGO), love baking, sewing, historical clothing, flower gardening and just puttering my way through life.
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