No one can fix you. And unfortunately, you've allowed your downward spiral to pull you so far into it, I think you've passed rock bottom. Honestly, I don't know where you stand, and truth be told, I don't really care. The simple fact is, you just want to complain. Complaining is not something I take lightly, especially when a person wants to do nothing to that of which they complain about.
In even more layman's term: I can't be arsed anymore.