I'm thinking why am i lonely
my interests and my personality don't align, when ever I'm introduced a new group of people that i've never met before i always click with the marching band and orchastra and those people. All my friends have always been into marching band, and acting, and doing those school muscials. I love them and we always had fun when we would hang out, we always had tons to talk about. But i don't like going out for school plays, or marching band. I like running, sometimes tennis and soccer. I want to go out for soccer again i really miss it, even I've always sucked at it. I remeber in Freshman and sophmore year i went out for the schools speech team because they made me, and i only made it into improv, but i had a lot of fun witht that. But the next year none of my friends decided to go out for improv, i still got to hang with them on the speech trips and stuff. But anyways i really wanted someone to go out for soccer with me, becuase i can never make friends on sports team. I never have anything to talk to them with, i just don't clickl with them. I've been on cross country for three years and i've yet to make a friend, the only thing we have in common to talk about is running and that subject gets pretty old pretty fast. Whenever i try to join in with a conversation i just end up looking like a complete idoit, so i just keep to myself. At meets when i'm not running i just read a book or do homework. And i see them talking and having the time of their lives, while my friends are doing the exact same thing at band camp without me. They get to spend all te time with each other doing those activities while I'm the third wheel that catches up with them afterwards as they talk about this one time at band camp. Anyways i really wanted someone to go out for soccer with me so i could have a friend with me. But no one wanted to, they are not very atheltic. *sighs* maybe ten years from now they'll be fat, and maybe I'll be able to take some devious solace in that.
Sure i love playing videogames and occasionally doing nothing, but thats all we ever do when we hang out, I've spend many summers with them in dark basements doing that. I'm a freak in a semi-normal person's body. (i'm not saying marching band people are freaks, but most of them have taken that as a compliment)
I just wish i had a friend that i could do stuff with like go bikking with and go out for cross country with, because people always get so close when they do those kinds of activities with, I've never been anyones best friend. *sigh* I'm a melodramtic egghead, I'm cling and I'm needy.
*sighs*