Keeping to myself as a teen, probably. I mean I would socialize with some folks at school, but largely kept to myself otherwise. Not sure why I did that. Used to hurt myself too then. Don't know why that was either. I know I was angry about moving when my parents separated and I was shy, but why it affected me so strongly that I would think of suicide is just a mystery. There was a bit of bullying, too. So maybe those all just hit me together and I retreated into myself. As a result, I missed out on a lot of chances for friendship and relationships from lack of confidence, fear of rejection, and just a general inability to think positively. Still fighting my way out of that mindset.