It's rather sad that your experiences with our gender has left a sore impression on you, but believe me, we're not all like that. I personally don't care about weight, looks, or status. And there are plenty of other women just like me. What I do believe will happen to you is that you will find that one person who you connect with and who you will be able to talk to about anything. And what will happen is that she will see you and think nothing of it. She will like you for you, and will care less about what you look like. As long as you're comfortable with yourself, she will be too.