I'm a very cruel person, but here's my advice:
If you're having trouble understanding anything we're saying, get a ******* book or website for translation, because it seems like you don't understand anyone, and we can't understand you if you can't send your message effectively.
You're much like a broken record, get off of your computer, and do SOMETHING. Exercising releases hormones that make you feel good, you should try it. Buy a dog, for **** sake, they'll always love you and they can teach you what love really is. Get off of your lazy ***, and do something about yourself. Maybe if you took pride in helping your appearance, you'd get excited with the changes you've made, and you'd feel better about yourself. No one likes a person that hates themselves. You obviously have so much hate invested in yourself, it's no wonder no one likes you.
The posts your receiving are primarily negative, that should say a lot. You could use an attitude adjustment. If you're this ignorant toward people in person, it's no wonder everyone hates you. There are plenty of ugly looking people in this world that have found love. The only thing making you ugly is how stupid and annoying you seem to be. Do something about that. Get a self help book, and learn how to act around people.
Stop obsessing over your past. It's the past, get over it. Make the future what you want it to be. The world isn't happening to you, you're happening to the world, and you're leaving a very ugly mark on it with your piss poor attitude. Everyone has a problem, no matter how perfect they may look, they're just better at hiding their problems. If your problem is weight with a funny looking eye, you can loose the weight, and then people would look past the eye. But, if your an annoying whiny person, the weight and the eye don't matter because you're annoying.
Because you were egging an honest response out of people, here it is, you've got it now. I probably left out a lot, because you really need someone to kick your *** up and down the block to get you to do something good for yourself, and to get you to stop complaining so damn much. If I were in Ireland, I'd do that for you. But, I'm not, so if you need any more *** kicking, feel free to PM me. I can dish it out all day long.