Hi everyone:-)

Magda · Mar 3, 2011

I would like to say hi to everyone on this site. I´m sorry for my English. I come from Czech republic. I´m 21 years old student of medicine in Prague, I do very well in my uni, I have never had any problems with studying, always have good results and I also participate in some research stuff on my uni, which is not really usual due to my age. I have a boyfriend, who loves me, who doesn´t cheat on me, who always tries to make me happy, who cares about me. I have nice family, we never had any serious problems. And I have enough friends.
Seems like i should be perfectly happy... I know. But I´m not, I´m sad, I feel lonely, I don´t know why, I never smiles, I don´t go out often, because when I go I´m bored. I´m still thinking about my existence, if there is any reason why I´m here, if it´s necessary to be here.
I get bored when I have to speak with people, I have a feeling that I know what they want to say when they just start speaking and ever minute seems to be like ten hours long, it´s so depressing. At uni I often want to run away, because people around me are talking too much about things which are so clear.
I tend to argue with my boyfriend because of nonsenses and I only make him sad and that´s not what I want. I would love to make him happy.
And I would also like to hear what you guys think about this ... and will be happy for any advice and reply.

Dessa · Mar 4, 2011

Aw I know what it's like when people expect you to be happy because you seem to have a normal life. It sucks because no one understands. I've tried telling my parents but it's tough. Pretending is much easier. Welcome to the forum and best of luck.

floffyschneeman · Mar 4, 2011

hey welcome to the forum.

Maybe you just have to try to get to know people a bit better. Because when you talk to a person casually, you may find her/him boring at first but once you give it chance to get to know them, that's when you realize the beauty of each person.

Callie · Mar 4, 2011

SherryGee · Mar 4, 2011

hey magda

Magda · Mar 6, 2011

thank you for welcoming me here

I will try to do something with me and my moods and depressions and will inform you in this forum, as it may help to someone else too.
In last few days i had really bad mood, was crying for hours with no reason, didn´t want to go to shop to buy food, was rather hungry, didn´t want to talk to nobody, not even to my lovely boyfriend who stayed with me all the time and so he set up an appointment for me with psychologist tomorrow, so hope i will manage to talk and formulate what i feel and taht it may help. Because when i have one of my good days, which is today for example i regret so much what i said the day before to my boyfreind how ugly i was and what a stupid things i was thinking about, but in that time i didn´t realize that.