I'm sobre, and I don't like it.

[cumulus.james]

I'm sobre, and I don't like it.

How do peolpe cope? Is this what it is like all the time?

Makes me wanna add a meth habit too.

 

[TheRealCallie]

People cope by accepting their situation. You don't have to like your situation, but when you begin to accept it, it gets easier.

Accepting it does NOT mean you like it or are okay with it. It just means that you can't change what happened before and you are ready to begin letting it go and move on from it

 

[cumulus.james]

People cope by accepting their situation. You don't have to like your situation, but when you begin to accept it, it gets easier.

Accepting it does NOT mean you like it or are okay with it. It just means that you can't change what happened before and you are ready to begin letting it go and move on from it

It's horrible. I don't think I will do it again.

 

[TheRealCallie]

People cope by accepting their situation. You don't have to like your situation, but when you begin to accept it, it gets easier.

Accepting it does NOT mean you like it or are okay with it. It just means that you can't change what happened before and you are ready to begin letting it go and move on from it

It's horrible. I don't think I will do it again.

That choice is yours, but drinking doesn't make it go away. It just allows you to live a delusion.

 

[cumulus.james]

People cope by accepting their situation. You don't have to like your situation, but when you begin to accept it, it gets easier.

Accepting it does NOT mean you like it or are okay with it. It just means that you can't change what happened before and you are ready to begin letting it go and move on from it

It's horrible. I don't think I will do it again.

That choice is yours, but drinking doesn't make it go away. It just allows you to live a delusion.

Ain't got nothing but the drink. If I ain't got the drink I got nothing.

Most of the time it has me.

 

[TheRealCallie]

People cope by accepting their situation. You don't have to like your situation, but when you begin to accept it, it gets easier.

Accepting it does NOT mean you like it or are okay with it. It just means that you can't change what happened before and you are ready to begin letting it go and move on from it

It's horrible. I don't think I will do it again.

That choice is yours, but drinking doesn't make it go away. It just allows you to live a delusion.

Ain't got nothing but the drink. If I ain't got the drink I got nothing.

Most of the time it has me.

No, that's where you're wrong. That's just the way it FEELS

 

[Nicolelt]

I'm sobre, and I don't like it.

How do peolpe cope? Is this what it is like all the time?

Makes me wanna add a meth habit too.

Don't do meth. Spare your teeth!

 

[Locke]

Ain't got nothing but the drink. If I ain't got the drink I got nothing.

Most of the time it has me.

The fact that you tell yourself that is one of your major problems. If you really believe that, you won't be able to stop drinking, and you won't have anything.

Find something. A higher power, a purpose. Something. If you really had no reason to stop drinking, you wouldn't stop. There are reasons, you do have things. No one can tell you what those are though, it's something you have to figure out. And like Callie said, accept your situation. You're at square one, and all you can do is keep moving forward.

 

[Ioann]

Well, here is a reason not to drink - it distorts your thinking. It makes you even more depressed than you would be. Stopping IS horrible, but after a few days, things really do look better.

 

[cumulus.james]

They don't. I often feel no one on here knows what true loneliness and isolation is. I have no one to talk to, all day, every day and it was thus since 2008, when I joined this forum.

I know people mean well with positivity but I am not getting anywhere because I can't find out how to cope in the knowledge that I am now and forever alone and forgotten to the human race.

I wonder what is it like to feel worth? Imagine feeling loved? What is that like?

What's it like to have a reason to be?

 

[TheRealCallie]

They don't. I often feel no one on here knows what true loneliness and isolation is. I have no one to talk to, all day, every day and it was thus since 2008, when I joined this forum.

I know people mean well with positivity but I am not getting anywhere because I can't find out how to cope in the knowledge that I am now and forever alone and forgotten to the human race.

I wonder what is it like to feel worth? Imagine feeling loved? What is that like?

What's it like to have a reason to be?

If you have no one to talk to, it's because you don't give anyone a chance. You don't go out and find something to give you a reason to be. That's on you and the alcohol will do nothing but reinforce those thoughts.
The choice is yours, but don't sit there and say that others don't know isolation and "true" loneliness.

 

[cumulus.james]

They don't. I often feel no one on here knows what true loneliness and isolation is. I have no one to talk to, all day, every day and it was thus since 2008, when I joined this forum.

I know people mean well with positivity but I am not getting anywhere because I can't find out how to cope in the knowledge that I am now and forever alone and forgotten to the human race.

I wonder what is it like to feel worth? Imagine feeling loved? What is that like?

What's it like to have a reason to be?

If you have no one to talk to, it's because you don't give anyone a chance. You don't go out and find something to give you a reason to be. That's on you and the alcohol will do nothing but reinforce those thoughts.
The choice is yours, but don't sit there and say that others don't know isolation and "true" loneliness.

Bit harsh. I got some bad **** mental illness you know. You should see my eyes right now. They are bloodshot and dead. I feel dead.

I always felt that thing where you just cant get out of bed, and you have to have rows with yourself for literally hours just to get up, and your bladder is hurting because you need a wee and just cant get up. And you know in your logical head it would be better if you just got up. But you just cant get up.

I seem to be yet to meet the person that gets that.

 

[TheRealCallie]

They don't. I often feel no one on here knows what true loneliness and isolation is. I have no one to talk to, all day, every day and it was thus since 2008, when I joined this forum.

I know people mean well with positivity but I am not getting anywhere because I can't find out how to cope in the knowledge that I am now and forever alone and forgotten to the human race.

I wonder what is it like to feel worth? Imagine feeling loved? What is that like?

What's it like to have a reason to be?

If you have no one to talk to, it's because you don't give anyone a chance. You don't go out and find something to give you a reason to be. That's on you and the alcohol will do nothing but reinforce those thoughts.
The choice is yours, but don't sit there and say that others don't know isolation and "true" loneliness.

Bit harsh. I got some bad **** mental illness you know. You should see my eyes right now. They are bloodshot and dead. I feel dead.

I always felt that thing where you just cant get out of bed, and you have to have rows with yourself for literally hours just to get up, and your bladder is hurting because you need a wee and just cant get up. And you know in your logical head it would be better if you just got up. But you just cant get up.

I seem to be yet to meet the person that gets that.

I DO get it. I've seen it on a very personal basis. I do understand what you are talking about, which is why you could say I'm being a little "harsh." Although, I could be a lot harsher...trust me on that.
The alcohol contributes to a lot of that. Hell, alcohol IS a mental illness. You just can't see it because you don't want to, maybe because you're afraid of doing it without the numbness alcohol brings, but you CAN get better and you can do it without the alcohol. You just have to want to. Not just say you want to, but to actually deep down honestly want to more than anything. Until that day comes, no one can help you because no one will be able to reach you. So, when I say it's all on you, it is, because only you can decide to change your circumstances.

 

[cumulus.james]

They don't. I often feel no one on here knows what true loneliness and isolation is. I have no one to talk to, all day, every day and it was thus since 2008, when I joined this forum.

I know people mean well with positivity but I am not getting anywhere because I can't find out how to cope in the knowledge that I am now and forever alone and forgotten to the human race.

I wonder what is it like to feel worth? Imagine feeling loved? What is that like?

What's it like to have a reason to be?

If you have no one to talk to, it's because you don't give anyone a chance. You don't go out and find something to give you a reason to be. That's on you and the alcohol will do nothing but reinforce those thoughts.
The choice is yours, but don't sit there and say that others don't know isolation and "true" loneliness.

Bit harsh. I got some bad **** mental illness you know. You should see my eyes right now. They are bloodshot and dead. I feel dead.

I always felt that thing where you just cant get out of bed, and you have to have rows with yourself for literally hours just to get up, and your bladder is hurting because you need a wee and just cant get up. And you know in your logical head it would be better if you just got up. But you just cant get up.

I seem to be yet to meet the person that gets that.

I DO get it. I've seen it on a very personal basis. I do understand what you are talking about, which is why you could say I'm being a little "harsh." Although, I could be a lot harsher...trust me on that.
The alcohol contributes to a lot of that. Hell, alcohol IS a mental illness. You just can't see it because you don't want to, maybe because you're afraid of doing it without the numbness alcohol brings, but you CAN get better and you can do it without the alcohol. You just have to want to. Not just say you want to, but to actually deep down honestly want to more than anything. Until that day comes, no one can help you because no one will be able to reach you. So, when I say it's all on you, it is, because only you can decide to change your circumstances.

Aww no don't be harsher mate.

I'm not in a good place right now.

Constructive critisism and challenges yeh but don't be harsh.

Police took my razor baldes. Ain't even got nothing now.

 

[TheRealCallie]

Police took my razor baldes. Ain't even got nothing now.

Good, you don't need them. Find a more constructive way of coping. Get a punching bag. Punch a pillow. Anything not dangerous that will release some of that pent up emotion.

 

[cumulus.james]

Police took my razor baldes. Ain't even got nothing now.

Good, you don't need them. Find a more constructive way of coping. Get a punching bag. Punch a pillow. Anything not dangerous that will release some of that pent up emotion.

Makes me feel better when I cut. Does not harm anyone else. I am not sure what the fuss was about. I was senior first-aider, I can cut without nothing happening.

But I am drunk now. And I need to cut and I can't even cut.

 

[TheRealCallie]

Police took my razor baldes. Ain't even got nothing now.

Good, you don't need them. Find a more constructive way of coping. Get a punching bag. Punch a pillow. Anything not dangerous that will release some of that pent up emotion.

Makes me feel better when I cut. Does not harm anyone else. I am not sure what the fuss was about. I was senior first-aider, I can cut without nothing happening.

But I am drunk now. And I need to cut and I can't even cut.

I understand that it makes you feel better. I really do, but there are safer ways to make yourself feel better.
The fuss is because it endangers you. Even if you are the best doctor in the world, you can still hurt yourself more than you want to....especially when you are drunk.

 

[cumulus.james]

Police took my razor baldes. Ain't even got nothing now.

Good, you don't need them. Find a more constructive way of coping. Get a punching bag. Punch a pillow. Anything not dangerous that will release some of that pent up emotion.

Makes me feel better when I cut. Does not harm anyone else. I am not sure what the fuss was about. I was senior first-aider, I can cut without nothing happening.

But I am drunk now. And I need to cut and I can't even cut.

I understand that it makes you feel better. I really do, but there are safer ways to make yourself feel better.
The fuss is because it endangers you. Even if you are the best doctor in the world, you can still hurt yourself more than you want to....especially when you are drunk.

I got nothing. There is nothing. And I am so alone.

I can't think of a single solution.

Only this 4.8% solution.

I hurt. All day. Every day. And I got no one.

I hate myself so much.

 

[TheRealCallie]

Police took my razor baldes. Ain't even got nothing now.

Good, you don't need them. Find a more constructive way of coping. Get a punching bag. Punch a pillow. Anything not dangerous that will release some of that pent up emotion.

Makes me feel better when I cut. Does not harm anyone else. I am not sure what the fuss was about. I was senior first-aider, I can cut without nothing happening.

But I am drunk now. And I need to cut and I can't even cut.

I understand that it makes you feel better. I really do, but there are safer ways to make yourself feel better.
The fuss is because it endangers you. Even if you are the best doctor in the world, you can still hurt yourself more than you want to....especially when you are drunk.

I got nothing. There is nothing. And I am so alone.

I can't think of a single solution.

Only this 4.8% solution.

I hurt. All day. Every day. And I got no one.

I hate myself so much.

There is something, there is always something. You just have to find it.
There are places that could help you, places you can go to make you not feel alone, but you have to take the steps to get yourself there.
There are people out there that could care about you if you let them and you don't have to hate yourself forever. You could turn yourself around and have a good life. You just have to ask yourself how bad you want it.

 

[cumulus.james]

Good, you don't need them. Find a more constructive way of coping. Get a punching bag. Punch a pillow. Anything not dangerous that will release some of that pent up emotion.

Makes me feel better when I cut. Does not harm anyone else. I am not sure what the fuss was about. I was senior first-aider, I can cut without nothing happening.

But I am drunk now. And I need to cut and I can't even cut.

I understand that it makes you feel better. I really do, but there are safer ways to make yourself feel better.
The fuss is because it endangers you. Even if you are the best doctor in the world, you can still hurt yourself more than you want to....especially when you are drunk.

I got nothing. There is nothing. And I am so alone.

I can't think of a single solution.

Only this 4.8% solution.

I hurt. All day. Every day. And I got no one.

I hate myself so much.

There is something, there is always something. You just have to find it.
There are places that could help you, places you can go to make you not feel alone, but you have to take the steps to get yourself there.
There are people out there that could care about you if you let them and you don't have to hate yourself forever. You could turn yourself around and have a good life. You just have to ask yourself how bad you want it.

where are these places?

I'm crying now and I hurt so much where can I just find another human?

It all hurts.

It just hurts.