I am a loner and I have a girlfriend.
It was so hard to find her, and it is hard to keep it going. I work on shifts 6 days a week, and I need to be alone a lot to feel good.
Since we've been together I stopped going out with everyone else so I can see her at least twice a week (I don't have that much of a social circle to preserve so I think I'm ok keeping only a few contacts with Msn: if she leaves me I'd just be back to the usual loneliness which I'm used to, no big deal).
She lives with her sister, they often throw parties with friends and we also go out together with her other sisters and their husbands (it's a big family..). So I am somewhat integrated in her social life.
The problem arises when I've had enough of the world and I can't get my alone time, usually because of overwork, the night shifts or other impediments. I tend to push her away and consequently I feel guilty and undeserving, all the while she feels rejected. She is very sensitive and I can be blunt when I'm stressed. We don't have real arguments, we just end up very sad for the day.
My g.f. as a person is extremely "giving", she loves intensely, she sees life through pink lens... she didn't have the ****** family life that I had as an upbringing, quite the contrary. She thinks that love and goodwill can solve every problem, she believes in eternal love:| and all that romantic bs. She is also very sensitive, a little needy, and easily offended by my occasional cynical comments (my ideas on love, marriage etc. aren't exactly bright..). Maybe she thinks she wants to "save" me, I can only hope she isn't really so naive.
I've been a good man with her, we've been happy, but years are passing. I can't shake the feeling that in the end she is going to hurt herself by staying with me. I don't know what to do about it though._.