Night89
Active member
It struck me today how lonely i am. I tried to reach out to a friend about a subject. He was my confidant until he changed his job. Anyhow tried to call and ask about a subject, a pattern struck me, nobody seams to answer my phone calls except my aunts and my dad. It's so frustrating, what am i doing so wrong?
People say it's not personal, but it becomes personal. It feels like im a rock in the ocean who's surrounding is eroding leaving me in a vacuum. My strategy is to not engage and being an observer, in this case on Facebook. i find that this strategy of isolation is working for the most. I can bee with myself and not engaging. The only place i have felt a sense of belonging recently is the mental ward. I have been committed several times recently due to self-harm and suicidal thoughts and actions. Writing this in this very moment gives me a realisation that my strategy is not working.
Anyhow the incident today made me realisation how lonely i truly am.
People say it's not personal, but it becomes personal. It feels like im a rock in the ocean who's surrounding is eroding leaving me in a vacuum. My strategy is to not engage and being an observer, in this case on Facebook. i find that this strategy of isolation is working for the most. I can bee with myself and not engaging. The only place i have felt a sense of belonging recently is the mental ward. I have been committed several times recently due to self-harm and suicidal thoughts and actions. Writing this in this very moment gives me a realisation that my strategy is not working.
Anyhow the incident today made me realisation how lonely i truly am.