I've touched on this topic before, but it kinda has a huge presence in my life, so I'll return to it multiple times. Today I met with yet another professional to see if they would be of any help. Granted, this was a referral from my support staff, and I was fast tracked, so I acknowledge I'm pretty lucky in that regard. She has some different ideas, but they make sense, I think. What she is proposing sounds like it's going to be extremely emotional, painful and just ******* hard. Here's the reason part of this.
Would any of you, knowing that life is, eh, tolerable and basically fine, disrupt the life you are living on only the hope it gets better? I read that question and I know there will be a number of yes replies. Obviously I would answer that way also. But, and someone may bitch about this point, I get it, I am a 42 year old male, from the Midwest and asking or even seeking help is still seen as sissy and weak. I don't really give two ***** and a **** about that, and haven't for almost six years. However, this is going to probably be more than a bit taxing for me. I'm drawing this out longer for the quality over quantity response I had once. I read this stuff.
I'm going off on a tangent, I know. I'm worried about maybe not being up to the task, and having anyone read this, and possibly going, '**** it dude, why not?'...not verbatim of course, would...damn this is weak..confirm(?) that I made the right choice. Damn that's a lot of words.
