What will satisfy you?
I ain't sure. A relationship may fix things, but probably wouldn't. I don't have much experience in that area, but I know people that have been burnt pretty bad by relationships, so I don't know. I kinda think that what I'm looking for is more a really good friend a gf atm, as I'm nowhere near being ready for any kind of relationship. My mind screws with me on a daily basis, so more emotional ups and downs would just make things worse, methinks.
What, do you think, can fix your loneliness problem?
I don't know if anything really can, it seems to be me more than anything. I perpetually find my self feeling alone in crowded rooms, spend my nights alone, and seemingly from choice. I'm sure if my appearance was more conventional, people would approach me more often, but I like being different from everyone else.
Do you need more friends? girl/boyfriend? Family?
I'd never say no to more friends, of the right kind. Like almost everyone else here, I can find the odd person who likes me a bit, and will chat, but tbh I'd rather have one really, really good friend, who I can tell everything to, who understands, and sympathises, who can support me and vice versa. I have one fairly good friend, but that's really it, other than that it's the odd 'acquaintance' here and there. I wouldn't say no to a girlfriend, but I also think that a relationship could complicate things. Also, I'm really bad at opening up to people- very few people know how I really feel, I just pull down a shell and hide everything. This place is a bit different, because there's a certain layer of anonymity, and I know that everyone here has similar feelings.
My family are OK, they love me in their own way, but there's always been a certain distance between me and my parents, I can't tell them much about myself, I feel I have to put on a face whenever I'm in front of them.
Do you need more attention?
Not sure. I get a few odd looks cos of my appearance (I have crazy hair and a number of piercings), but I tend to just ignore it. I'm kinda shy, always have been, so being the centre of attention has always made me feel pretty darn uncomfortable. It's not as bad as it used to be, but I still find it kinda awkward to make eye contact, or look at people when I'm talking to them.
Wow, that was quite a random meander through my thoughts, didn't expect it to be quite that long... it may be a little confused, I wrote it in kind of a wierd order...