Simply sic me

[Guest]

well... today was a bad. but I'm sure a few of you can relate to that. from the second I woke up, I felt like going back to bed. to avoid having to be around myself. eventually I dragged my ass out of bed. but only to be stuck in a daze for a bout 2 hours just staring at the wall. I couldn't bring myself to do a thing. so after a while I thought of going out for a walk. thinking the exercise would do me some good. but i just felt so weak. mentally and physically. I couldn't bring myself to get up and go. so then I just decided to watch some tv. but I couldn't concentrate or pay attention to what was going on. I just didn't care. finally I decided to put on my headset and listen to some music and just sit back and stare at the ceiling. so I did that for a few hours. then I forced my self to clean up the house. I wasn't even hungry today. which is rare for me. but I'm hoping tomorrow will be better. if not, then oh well. finally the day has come to an end. my body is tired. but my brain is awake. and all I can think of is how much I hate everybody

~ Trent

 

[mink]

Hey Trent. I know nothing anyone say can make you feel better at this point of time. But you really gotta hang in there man. What's really bothering you right now? I know the exhaustion drives you crazy but you gotta eat. And yes, I do hope tomorrow will be a better day for ya.

 

[Blue Sky]

well... today was a bad. but I'm sure a few of you can relate to that. from the second I woke up, I felt like going back to bed. to avoid having to be around myself. eventually I dragged my ass out of bed. but only to be stuck in a daze for a bout 2 hours just staring at the wall. I couldn't bring myself to do a thing. so after a while I thought of going out for a walk. thinking the exercise would do me some good. but i just felt so weak. mentally and physically. I couldn't bring myself to get up and go. so then I just decided to watch some tv. but I couldn't concentrate or pay attention to what was going on. I just didn't care. finally I decided to put on my headset and listen to some music and just sit back and stare at the ceiling. so I did that for a few hours. then I forced my self to clean up the house. I wasn't even hungry today. which is rare for me. but I'm hoping tomorrow will be better. if not, then oh well. finally the day has come to an end. my body is tired. but my brain is awake. and all I can think of is how much I hate everybody

~ Trent

Hi Trent

Well I don't know your story, and I am no doctor, but from what you wrote it seems to me that your suffering from depression of some sort.
I have suffered from depression in the past, and my symptoms were nearly the same as yours.
There was a way out for me though, I seeked professional help to start with, joined support groups, set goals, made a routine in my life, even when I was unemployed. I set myself daily tasks and made sure I completed them, even when I didn't want to. This forum has helped me alot also. I just didn't want to live in a depressed rutt anymore. Sure I'm still lonely and don't have many friends, but now I'm motivated, my self worth is alot higher from achieving the goals that I set, and I also enjoy life alot more than I used to. You don't have to try these things all at once, just in small steps Trent.

 

[suna]

woke up the same way you did lol... actually each day it's that way.
if none needs me out, why trying to go out?
i fought for nothing, laughed at nobody
everyone looks the same, i dont remember names
so i want to move to another place to live... hopefully soon.
at least i get to stare at different walls.

hmm, i m depressed too then?

 

[Guest]

woke up the same way you did lol... actually each day it's that way.
if none needs me out, why trying to go out?
i fought for nothing, laughed at nobody
everyone looks the same, i dont remember names
so i want to move to another place to live... hopefully soon.
at least i get to stare at different walls.

hmm, i m depressed too then?

Well maybe you are, maybe not, but wouldn't you like to change the way that you feel?

 

[AngryLoner]

woke up the same way you did lol... actually each day it's that way.
if none needs me out, why trying to go out?
i fought for nothing, laughed at nobody
everyone looks the same, i dont remember names
so i want to move to another place to live... hopefully soon.
at least i get to stare at different walls.

hmm, i m depressed too then?

well... today was a bad. but I'm sure a few of you can relate to that. from the second I woke up, I felt like going back to bed. to avoid having to be around myself. eventually I dragged my ass out of bed. but only to be stuck in a daze for a bout 2 hours just staring at the wall. I couldn't bring myself to do a thing. so after a while I thought of going out for a walk. thinking the exercise would do me some good. but i just felt so weak. mentally and physically. I couldn't bring myself to get up and go. so then I just decided to watch some tv. but I couldn't concentrate or pay attention to what was going on. I just didn't care. finally I decided to put on my headset and listen to some music and just sit back and stare at the ceiling. so I did that for a few hours. then I forced my self to clean up the house. I wasn't even hungry today. which is rare for me. but I'm hoping tomorrow will be better. if not, then oh well. finally the day has come to an end. my body is tired. but my brain is awake. and all I can think of is how much I hate everybody

~ Trent

Sounds like depression to me. I have experienced these things many times before and I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.

 

[suna]

i dont like docs mom is one... -_-
and she plays cyber games the whole day...