So what do you want, RIGHT NOW?

[TheRealCallie]

I wanted it to be sincere, so bad.

Honestly I'd rather have the opposite -
I'd rather have people ignore me, or even tell me I suck,
rather than butter me up, flatter me for months, make me feel like I'm special, and we're really connecting,
just to kick the ladder out from under me when the first pseudo-intellectual tech bro comes along spouting out very basic, half-baked, bathtub-level depth "highdeas".

Anyway. I guess we'll have to wait and see.

Thanks for having my back, in any case.

Is this you jumping to conclusions prematurely, did someone play with you or did someone just "ghost" you on a dating site or the like?

If it's someone playing with you, I really hope that "wait and see" is not you going to accept them back into your life if they decide you are good enough again. You deserve more than that, Ska.

 

[TheSkaFish]

Is this you jumping to conclusions prematurely, did someone play with you or did someone just "ghost" you on a dating site or the like?

If it's someone playing with you, I really hope that "wait and see" is not you going to accept them back into your life if they decide you are good enough again. You deserve more than that, Ska.

Thanks Callie.

I don't know what the situation really is, or what I even feel right now.
It seems like I'm always exaggerating my importance to the women I meet that I think I could potentially date.

It seems she got back to me today, and I'm treading very carefully trying not to get ahead of myself.
Just play it cool.
For now I'm just trying to take things one moment at a time.
We're not dating. I'm not dating anyone at the moment. Just talking.

It would probably be best if I could build up some energy to tackle more immediate things, to take my mind off it for a while.

 

[0mgofhappiness]

Completely change. I hate everything about myself. I hate that I hate the way British people spell mum 'mom'. I hate that I hate that. I literally despise what I despise.

 

[HellsLittleAngel]

Completely change. I hate everything about myself. I hate that I hate the way British people spell mum 'mom'. I hate that I hate that. I literally despise what I despise.

I'm in America and I prefer mum.

 

[0mgofhappiness]

I'm in America and I prefer mum.

In America that cool. But having known people that have always been British and suddenly changing their mum to mom. Gives me the heeby heebys

 

[HellsLittleAngel]

In America that cool. But having known people that have always been British and suddenly changing their mum to mom. Gives me the heeby heebys

It's like that in America, people spell the word mom but say mum.

 

[TheRealCallie]

A donut

 

[Unsigned]

To figure out what to make for dinner.

Going back and forth between eggs & potatoes, macaroni with red sauce, or franks and a salad...



EDIT:

It was franks and a salad...

 

[HellsLittleAngel]

I want to go shopping for all kinds of things, but sadly, just window shopping for now.

 

[TheSkaFish]

I want to split myself into multiple "me's" and live out each timeline.

 

[HellsLittleAngel]

I want to split myself into multiple "me's" and live out each timeline.

I have a friend who actually lives this way. He has several different things going on with him, but he has DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) along with other comorbid conditions.

 

[TheSkaFish]

I have a friend who actually lives this way. He has several different things going on with him, but he has DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) along with other comorbid conditions.

I don't think I have that.
I know we were in that other place, about that stuff.
But I don't know how mentally ill I really am.
I had some OCD as a kid that was pretty bad. Definitely caused some developmental problems, home stress, fights, and unhappiness I didn't need.
And painful regrets I carry to this day.
I also have a tendency to pessimism, catastrophizing, and difficulty focusing
(somewhat due to the pessimism -
"why bother straining myself to focus? I can't succeed anyway, I'm not good enough, you gotta be born with it and I'm not, if I was I'd know cause I'd be better and I'd like it more because of it and I'd be more naturally interested in it and it would just come to me on its own and I wouldn't HAVE to force myself to focus").
My mind is like a deck of cards, that gets thrown all over a room.

But in this case it's more about having multiple crushes at the same time.

And the thing is I'm not out to play or hurt anyone.
I genuinely care for them all and enjoy them all as people.

But, you can only choose one. And that means not choosing the rest.
So yeah, that's it.

 

[HellsLittleAngel]

I don't think I have that.
I know we were in that other place, about that stuff.
But I don't know how mentally ill I really am.
I had some OCD as a kid that was pretty bad. Definitely caused some developmental problems, home stress, fights, and unhappiness I didn't need.
And painful regrets I carry to this day.
I also have a tendency to pessimism, catastrophizing, and difficulty focusing
(somewhat due to the pessimism -
"why bother straining myself to focus? I can't succeed anyway, I'm not good enough, you gotta be born with it and I'm not, if I was I'd know cause I'd be better and I'd like it more because of it and I'd be more naturally interested in it and it would just come to me on its own and I wouldn't HAVE to force myself to focus").
My mind is like a deck of cards, that gets thrown all over a room.

But in this case it's more about having multiple crushes at the same time.

And the thing is I'm not out to play or hurt anyone.
I genuinely care for them all and enjoy them all as people.

But, you can only choose one. And that means not choosing the rest.
So yeah, that's it.

I wasn't implying that you had it, I was just stating the fact that I have a friend who deals with this type of thing and then some.

 

[TheSkaFish]

I wasn't implying that you had it, I was just stating the fact that I have a friend who deals with this type of thing and then some.

It's OK, I didn't think you were and I didn't take offense to it.
I knew what you meant.

It just got me talking, in general.

 

[Just Games]

My lazy backside gen z to get the bog rolls he promised to get six hours ago.I could walk down within five mins of realising we need them.Todays kids to used to everything on a plate like takeaway deliveries, I dunno not in my day źzzzzzzzzz

 

[TheSkaFish]

Food.

Although I'm skeptical about religion, I fasted all day with my Dad for Ash Wednesday.

It would have been cruel for me to stuff my face while he was starving, so I did it as well in solidarity.
I've had nothing all day but water and coffee.
I feel woozy now and definitely ready for dinner.

 

[HellsLittleAngel]

Food.

Although I'm skeptical about religion, I fasted all day with my Dad for Ash Wednesday.

It would have been cruel for me to stuff my face while he was starving, so I did it as well in solidarity.
I've had nothing all day but water and coffee.
I feel woozy now and definitely ready for dinner.

You can't starve yourself all day for someone else. You need to eat.