lostinlifeitseems
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Hi there
As the subject noted I have been a member of the forum for a while but this is my first post. I don't have a good reason for why I didn't post except that the anxiety associated with the thought of posting won. I have been battling depression for the majority of my adult life. It has been an up and down roller coaster where I can function without meds and deal with life ok. Other times I have struggled to cope without meds. Currently I have been prescribed a cocktail of meds and also working with a therapist.
I am struggling with a mix of low self esteem, social anxiety and an overall feeling of sadness and loneliness. I have had some friendship / relationship end in similar ways and I am convinced that is it my fault. In my mind I believe that I am doing the right things but in the end I feel used and alone.
Now add the social anxiety...meeting new people is way out of my comfort zone. I clam up and have troubles talking, which comes across as being unapproachable. I'm really not that person...well at least I didn't use to be. I want to have that confidence to be able to talk to and relate to whomever...but right now all I think is that whatever I try is going to fail and it will be my fault.
As the subject noted I have been a member of the forum for a while but this is my first post. I don't have a good reason for why I didn't post except that the anxiety associated with the thought of posting won. I have been battling depression for the majority of my adult life. It has been an up and down roller coaster where I can function without meds and deal with life ok. Other times I have struggled to cope without meds. Currently I have been prescribed a cocktail of meds and also working with a therapist.
I am struggling with a mix of low self esteem, social anxiety and an overall feeling of sadness and loneliness. I have had some friendship / relationship end in similar ways and I am convinced that is it my fault. In my mind I believe that I am doing the right things but in the end I feel used and alone.
Now add the social anxiety...meeting new people is way out of my comfort zone. I clam up and have troubles talking, which comes across as being unapproachable. I'm really not that person...well at least I didn't use to be. I want to have that confidence to be able to talk to and relate to whomever...but right now all I think is that whatever I try is going to fail and it will be my fault.
