What are you feeling, hoping, thinking, or remembering right now?

[kirakn]

I want to stay in bed until monday...So I'm gonna start the revolution from my bed...

 

[thelonegamer]

Hoping my calculations are correct. If they aren't, I'm a dead man :/

 

[Cavey]

Hoping my calculations are correct. If they aren't, I'm a dead man :/

You're building a teleporter, right?

 

[thelonegamer]

I need to lower my expectations : /

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Hoping my calculations are correct. If they aren't, I'm a dead man :/

You're building a teleporter, right?

nope, building my life

 

[Peaches]

feeling like the biggest loser that ever existed, hoping to find a way out of this situation,

 

[wolvesjr]

feeling like its going to be a long, bad night

 

[johnny196775]

Deep down i just want to ******* die.

 

[VeganAtheist]

Deep down i just want to ******* die.

I know the feeling.

I hope things get better for you, Johnny. I really do.

 

[johnny196775]

.................thanks

 

[thelonegamer]

Super upset. All my bookmarks were deleted due to some virus :/

 

[ladyforsaken]

Deep down i just want to ******* die.

sorry you're feeling like that. Hope you will feel better soon.

 

[lonelyfairy]

Deep down i just want to ******* die.

Me too. ;_;

 

[WishingWell]

I am feeling tortured by being alone and no one talking to me. I feel like I am being tested to see how many--I think it's about 10, but I'm not sure--days I have been alone. If this was a husband I was dealing with, I think I could claim it was extreme cruelty. My mind is getting less and less clear.

 

[InSearchOfPeople]

Deep down i just want to ******* die.

Me too. ;_;

I feel the same today.....like never before.

I got nauseous thinking, that all my goals, wishes, plans are absolutely pointless and that there is no one in this world besides my poor mom, who cares at least a bit if I even exist.

 

[InSearchOfPeople]

I am feeling tortured by being alone and no one talking to me. I feel like I am being tested to see how many--I think it's about 10, but I'm not sure--days I have been alone. If this was a husband I was dealing with, I think I could claim it was extreme cruelty. My mind is getting less and less clear.

I can talk to you. Who are you dealing with? Isolation is one of the most cruel actions of human beings against each other.

This is the worst part, when people inflict loneliness on you, and then your own mind makes it a "normal" state, a habit of being that way. Need to change it by changing the thoughts to the opposite way, and thinking that those people around, actually care. Or may be keep trying to find those, that do care.

I was driving home from work and thought about last posts by WishingWell and johnny196775. My thoughts were, if we are not afraid to lose this life, like most other people, then we have nothing to lose, and in this case, it should free us and our thinking to go out there and to keep trying to achieve and get what we want and what will make us happy.
Most other people are not trying to be more and get more, because they are afraid to lose this or that. There is no limit for fearless people.
We can try to get another job, go talk to that person we like, start working out, do something we always wanted to, because there is nothing else to lose.

It is going to be ok.

 

[thelonegamer]

Feeling alone

 

[Cavey]

I'm feeling pretty good and I'm thinking that the world would be a happier place if everyone listened to The Doubleclicks.

 

[thelonegamer]

Feeling calmer than usual. It's funny how a simple email can change a person's life

 

[TheSkaFish]

Feeling sad, now that it's really sinking in that the girl I loved is gone, probably for good. Not only that, but it's also really sinking in that I'm probably never going to have a relationship. And it's all my fault. I didn't cultivate an interesting enough life and attitude by the time I needed to have it, and as a result, I let all the girls that had everything I wanted slip through my fingers. I could have been so happy, having them push me to have more depth, to be more creative and adventurous. The things we could have done together, the places we could have gone, the conversations we could have had, the memories we could have created...we could have had a wonderful life together and now that will most likely never be. Now if I want a relationship, the only option left is to just pretend to be interested in someone and just play along, the whole time I'll just be sad that this is where I wound up. But I'll never truly be happy there, with someone who doesn't inspire me at all. And I could never even get the motivation to ask out someone I think is just okay, and have to slog my way through conversations about things like sports and tv shows. And I'll go the rest of my life wishing it could have been different. If I could have just ******* been the kind of person that had what they wanted, if I'd just been interesting and exciting and deep and fun and successful, I could have gotten to experience romantic love, and all of the good feelings and experiences that go along with it. Now I'll never know what it feels like to be with someone I truly want. I just want to do my life over again. I want to be someone else.

It really sucks to have to go your own way. All I can think of is that I'll never get to experience the laughter, the late-night chats, the trips, the cuddling, the warmth, the closeness that you can't get with your family or your friends. The feeling of caring and being cared for that I don't get to know. I'll never get to experience the excitement as I build a connection with someone, never get to go out and do things with just the two of us. Never get to even hug or hold hands. I suppose I should keep trying to build an interesting life in the off-chance one of the girls I wanted breaks up or gets divorced, but it's a distant hope at best. Going my own way. This is what I get to experience with my one and only life, because this is what all of my ******* choices that I've made add up to. God **** it.

 

[johnny196775]

this forum can be very depressing most of the time. I found a happiness forum once but noone was using it.