What are you feeling, hoping, thinking, or remembering right now?

[WildernessWildChild]

Clean and press with just a bar until failure is a destroyer!

 

[Mr.YellowCat]

Brother relapsed...So that made me remember a lot. And made me scared for the upcoming days.

 

[InSearchOfPeople]

Why by then?

School starts by then, my mind will have other concerns to deal with instead of wandering about my existence in this world every day and every week.
Routine is killing me, it's like there's no way out. I feel kinda claustrophobic with my life, as if it's suffocating me :/
But that's my status now, not forever. That's why I'm not insane yet. I am leaving for the capital city of my country in 2015 to live with my brother and a friend, hopefully better times will be those than these ones of now.
My only concerns will be finding new videogames for the PS4 that awaits me, making sure they don't get a single scratch, finishing my last year of school which is next year, get a form of income, meet loads of new people, figuring out what level of awesomeness our weekends will be: if it's 10 out of 10, or perhaps take stuff easy and go for a 7/10 night. My concerns by then will be a lot better than the ones now.
That's what keeps me going right now: hope, for better days *lowers head*

"hope for better days" is what keeps me alive.

I feel so blue right now, I am trying to rush to go to sleep and wake up tomorrow with a clear mind, because right now everything is foggy, negative and looking sad in my eyes.

I can't believe, one stupid guy, that came out of the blue, that I haven't seen or haven't heard from for over 5 years, a guy that I forgot he exists, can throw me off of my slow path of getting better with myself and my plans.

It feels like when you are vulnerable, every "dog" around feels that and trying to bite you.

 

[ladyforsaken]

Brother relapsed...So that made me remember a lot. And made me scared for the upcoming days.

I'm so sorry. I hope he'll be okay. I hope you're okay too.

Why by then?

School starts by then, my mind will have other concerns to deal with instead of wandering about my existence in this world every day and every week.
Routine is killing me, it's like there's no way out. I feel kinda claustrophobic with my life, as if it's suffocating me :/
But that's my status now, not forever. That's why I'm not insane yet. I am leaving for the capital city of my country in 2015 to live with my brother and a friend, hopefully better times will be those than these ones of now.
My only concerns will be finding new videogames for the PS4 that awaits me, making sure they don't get a single scratch, finishing my last year of school which is next year, get a form of income, meet loads of new people, figuring out what level of awesomeness our weekends will be: if it's 10 out of 10, or perhaps take stuff easy and go for a 7/10 night. My concerns by then will be a lot better than the ones now.
That's what keeps me going right now: hope, for better days *lowers head*

I see now. That makes sense, to have things to mainly occupy your mind. I hope it works out for you really. Good luck, tlg.

 

[Christina Sarah]

2 more days until he's due. I'm so anxious to meet him...

 

[ladyforsaken]

2 more days until he's due. I'm so anxious to meet him...

OMG I am wishing you a smooth delivery and I hope it all goes well with you and baby!! Welcome to the world (in advanced), precious little one! <3

 

[Triple Bogey]

all that shite from last year was happening around now.
What a big joke it turned out to be !
So glad I am not in a similar situation

 

[Alma lost her spoon]

Trying so very hard to NOT think about this time last year myself, I find I'm wishing I could go back & experience it all again, I wouldn't change a single thing!

 

[WishingWell]

I am terrified it's not going to work--then what?

 

[WildernessWildChild]

I hate having to be Stern Dad, kind of makes me feel like honeysuckle when I see Kid upset....thankfully it's a very rare occurrence.

Now if the knot in my stomach would just go away

 

[Alma lost her spoon]

Hold on in there & look forward to the day that kid grows up & appreciates what you've gone through WWC.

I should be in bed asleep, I have to teach tomorrow, I'm struggling tonight, I can't do a thing about it....

 

[WildernessWildChild]

Hold on in there & look forward to the day that kid grows up & appreciates what you've gone through WWC.

I should be in bed asleep, I have to teach tomorrow, I'm struggling tonight, I can't do a thing about it....

Thanks Alma, she's okay with the discussion now. Seeing her sad/upset is likely as hard on me as it is her, a guys gotta be looking out for his little girl.

Too much caffeine?

 

[WallflowerGirl83]

I have a passion for flowers, herbs & gardening!

 

[user 115627]

I feel like crying and swearing...but I know I won't. I can't allow myself to wallow in this persistent feeling of imperfection. So I'm just gonna sit here, listen to music, stare at the screen and do what I always do: numb myself.

 

[thelonegamer]

I realized I'm addicted to smoking cigs and that I smoke them to make me feel better, so I decided to fight against smoking at all costs. The prospect of addiction is too much for me, let alone death. I hate being addicted to destructive things. Had I an addiction to music, which I do, that would be considerable. But I just can't stand the fact that I am addicted to something that will destroy me. I had always thought I smoked by choice and not addiction, and I did, until I overused it and now got addicted.
But now I need to fight this, because it's against all my laws of living

 

[Ruthie]

Had a fantastic 'IRL people fix' this afternoon out walking in the sunshine with a super neighbour and we had so much fun simply acknowledging others along the way and in the park!
Nothing really any more involved than exchanging pleasant hellos with people but it was so terrific!

If you're ever feeling lonely or down, especially if your weather's nice, just look your best, go out, take a walk and SMILE at people! Don't be afraid! They will smile back and you will feel so fantastic!

 

[Triple Bogey]

Had a fantastic 'IRL people fix' this afternoon out walking in the sunshine with a super neighbour and we had so much fun simply acknowledging others along the way and in the park!
Nothing really any more involved than exchanging pleasant hellos with people but it was so terrific!

If you're ever feeling lonely or down, especially if your weather's nice, just look your best, go out, take a walk and SMILE at people! Don't be afraid! They will smile back and you will feel so fantastic!

So true !
And great advice !

 

[kirakn]

feeling empty...

 

[Alma lost her spoon]

I've almost made it all the way through this weekend, I've had help from various places & I'm grateful for it-it's good to know there's people out there who give a **** enough about me.

I 'CAN' do this!

I haven't contacted 'HIM' & I believe I'm not going to at this point!

 

[Solivagant]

I haz the very most tiredest eyes...