What are you thinking right now?

[zero]

I made someone cry today when they were only trying to help. See, apparantly my goal is to alienate and drive away every single person who shows any interest in my well being. That way I'll be completely alone again and I can just give up on everything.
I'm a jerk. I break everything I touch. I really hate myself sometimes.

Hug. Please, don`t make a habit of judging yourself negatively, it will eventually spiral down to a belief pattern, which can only have negative consequences. Think in terms of what you wish for and what/how you`d like to be, practice positive thinking. And awareness.
Our thoughts create our reality.
I don`t think you are a jerk, you made a mistake, learn from it and if you feel like a jerk, ok, it`s understandable and also something temporary that is in your power to change. But you are not defined but just one feeling and action, so you are not a jerk.
On topic: Exactly this happened to me today too. Someone made me cry, when I was trying to help. And I remember the response I got: The way to hell is paved with good intentions. Well, I get a lot of attacks, insults and negative judgements from people I help and do good, or at least, nothing bad. That makes me indeed sad, cry, suffer, but NEVER would I hate those persons. I respect the difference in opinion in perception.
I`m sure the person you made cry today, has the power of forgiveness and doesn`t hate. Then don`t do it to yourself neither. It`s not a constructive attitude and you know it.
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[Drama]

Do not think that hiding in your room will provoke a reaction of 'need' in me. I know all your tricks, and i dont need you to be here so that i can enjoy my time. I wonder when you will realise that manipulating others isnt the way to get them to love you.

 

[Triple Bogey]

it feels more and more that it either didn't happen or happened to somebody else

 

[EveWasFramed]

My god what a total honeysuckle day, lol.

 

[zero]

it feels more and more that it either didn't happen or happened to somebody else

What?

Posted by EveWasFramed - Today 11:35 PM
My god what a total honeysuckle day, lol.

Same here.

 

[LeaningIntoTheMuse]

My god what a total honeysuckle day, lol.

It rained and stormed all day here today. A dreary November day.

 

[Okiedokes]

lol.. boy did I do bad on that homework. Thank goodness for retrys!

 

[Peaches]

I really suck at most things, it is a wonder why I keep trying, the spirit of Ed Wood is with me, clearly

 

[Drama]

Ugh...

 

[lonelyfairy]

I should be sleeping... it's 4:30 already. But so many things wandering in my head. Sigh.

 

[Broken_Doll]

I really hope this bad cold goes away.

Do I: play The Sims, watch Game of Thrones or go to bed?
I know I probably should go to bed now and I am a little sleepy, but I don't want to go to bed hrmph.

Cold sausage sandwiches are gooood.

I think I'll just sit here on Tumblr instead.

Saturday 16th-Sunday 17th was a lot of fun - went to a rave with my uncle and his fiancée, she is lovely - really sweet, awesome, kind fun loving person. I think she's good for my uncle, keeps him young. She's doing a hairdressing course and needs volunteers, so yay free trims for me!

 

[MTrip]

"Brain by IBM & Bear Trap Inc., body by some third-rate factory in China"....That describes me.

 

[Among the Sleep]

I have the beat to this song stuck in my head

 

[9006]

Not enough sleep! No chance of getting any more either...

 

[zero]

yesterday was a mess, I felt horrible both physically and emotionally, so I couldn`t do a single thing about the deadlines. hope I`ll catch up today and manage to work more, so I can finish most of them by tomorrow night. The day started with a headache, my sight is still blurrred, so yeah, that`s encouraging (not). My arrythmia has worsened, hope at least not have another asphyxiation attack. .... Life is beautiful, but it really sucks sometimes.

 

[Triple Bogey]

it feels more and more that it either didn't happen or happened to somebody else

What?


something that happened earlier on this year.

Posted by EveWasFramed - Today 11:35 PM
My god what a total honeysuckle day, lol.

Same here.

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Saturday is the best day at work by miles !

 

[zero]

One of those items is a "Monster High" doll which I am especially happy about lol.

My daughter is a huge fan of Monster High. I could never understand why. But she convinced me into buying her all the magazines, stickers for two collections and 3 () dolls. Oh, and she subscribed to a contest and worked passionately to accomplish the conditions required there, just to win another doll (OMG, another one???? I really hope, this is just a phase *doh*).

 

[LeaningIntoTheMuse]

Is Monster High like Fear Street by RL Stine?

 

[zero]

Is Monster High like Fear Street by RL Stine?

Maybe there is a resemblance. Monster High Wikipedia, Monster High Official Website, sample picture

 

[MTrip]

Y'all can complain about the weather if you want. I'm glad summer is over. Sure it's cold & wet right now but at least I don't need to grow a set of gills because of humidity at 94 degrees.