I'm just really bummed about that girl I spent all of 2013 getting to know. She seemed like almost exactly what I wanted in a girl and we actually really connected. I miss how I used to not be able to be online for more than a few seconds before I'd get a message from her, or her saying she enjoys me and wants me around. It's so frustrating cause I thought this time I was getting somewhere, that my positive attitude was paying off and that I finally met someone different, someone special. I thought my luck was really changing for the better this time, that for once in my life, someone who is actually good-looking and interesting and exciting likes me back...only for it to be the same old **** in the end. I guess it means that I still have a long way to go before I'm the kind of person that gets somewhere in life. But sometimes I just want to yell goddamnit, why can't I just get what I want with relationships for once???? I almost never meet any girls that have what I want as it is and I'm tired of life shitting on me, I'm just so tired of being rejected and not being good enough to get the ones I want.
PS please forgive the foul language. I don't like to curse unless I really mean it, sometimes regular talk is not enough.