Last Friday, I went to the Auto Show with my friends and was thankfully able to take my mind off of Valentine's Day by hanging out and looking through all of the cars. Before we went, we met up at one of our friends' houses. This guy is the same age as me and has his own house right here where we are from. The fact that it is a house isn't really the point. It just makes me think of when that girl I fell in love with last year was talking to me about moving in with me and it makes me wonder, what if I hadn't fallen off the path of making money and having my life together? She mentioned to me that I should move to Canada a couple times, but I didn't want to leave my family behind forever. It makes me think that if only I'd been working all these years, by now, I could have had my own place right here where I grew up so I could be close to my family, AND I could have invited her to live with me. I could have had it all, high local taxes be damned. Even if I was just living in an apartment, I wouldn't even need a house. If only I'd known what was coming and had my life together by last April, when she was talking to me every day and always telling me to be online more....
Now, she's living with some piece of ****. I'm not just saying that either just because it's another guy and not me. I mean that is exactly the kind of person she's chosen. A ******* druggie bum. A loser. When the whole year we got along so well. I know I'm not perfect either, I've already admitted that I don't have my finances together. But I live a clean life and try to be a good person, I don't do this stupid druggie burnout criminal bad-boy ********. It always sucks to lose the girls I want to other guys, but it sucks all the more because I always seem to lose the girls I like to ****-kickers like this. It's never that the girls I like have lost interest in me over a rock star or a millionaire entrepreneur or an athlete. It's always a ******* slob. Man...it just really hurts.