Just checked some sites to see if in fact my problem is my location, that attractive women just don't live in Chicago. I can see that, because it's kind of a cold, wet, and gray place most of the year (not to mention expensive), with little to do if you're not terribly interested in drinking and not much of a sports fan. The museums are neat but once you've done those that's about it. There's not much in the way of outdoors around here. I thought, surely they are more attractive in California. Turns out it's exactly the same, where I find most unattractive and the rest are simply nondescript - not bad-looking but not particularly good-looking or interesting either.
I don't know. I'm trying to tell myself not to get too down because I don't know for sure that it will be like this forever, that maybe I'll get another chance with the ones I want somehow, or even more unlikely, maybe someone I'd like will move here. But it just seems so unlikely. It's really not a fun thought to face the possibility of going through my entire life single, but right now that's the most likely scenario.