What are you thinking right now?

[user 115627]

Tomorrow is gonna be my last day there - seems more like Judgement Day. Future never looked so bleak before and nothing but end-of-days thoughts on my mind. I wonder if I still weigh the same or if that has gotten even worse in the meantime too. I sure as hell feel like a carcass by now. With no trust in my abilities or my luck.

I know there will be no deliverance unless it comes from my own end. But right now I just feel like collapsing...and I remember how I used to think to myself: "Maybe you were never meant to survive any of this."

 

[lifestream]

Why is it when I'm down, everyone else is up, and when I'm up, everyone else is down?

 

[Arachne]

Sherbert Lemons are my favorite.

 

[Solivagant]

 

[Rosebolt]

Glad you're gone again. Just hope you won't come back as your pet goldfish that knows the english language or whatever.

 

[PenDragon]

I really wish I could change few things, not big, just few little things...

 

[HoodedMonk]

I really wish I could change few things, not big, just few little things...

Somehow I think happiness is consistent rather than based on "if that, then happiness" Which is why happiness seems out of reach for so many people.

Just haven't gotten to that principle yet. Still reading books on suicidology.

 

[lonelyfairy]

Sometimes it's easier to answer ''I'm okey'' instead of telling how much in pain I am. There are no words for that.

 

[mslonely]

Sometimes it's easier to answer ''I'm okey'' instead of telling how much in pain I am. There are no words for that.

Hope you're okay there, LonelyFairy (hugs)

 

[lonelyfairy]

Sometimes it's easier to answer ''I'm okey'' instead of telling how much in pain I am. There are no words for that.

Hope you're okay there, LonelyFairy (hugs)

Thank you, mslonely *hugs back*

I try to live one day at the time...

 

[TheRealCallie]

Ugh, just ugh. That is hardly the truth.

 

[PenDragon]

I really wish I could change few things, not big, just few little things...

Somehow I think happiness is consistent rather than based on "if that, then happiness" Which is why happiness seems out of reach for so many people.

Just haven't gotten to that principle yet. Still reading books on suicidology.

It's not the happiness that I seek, what I seek is peace of soul and I think that different than happiness. Or It's the same, I don't know. but to me It doesn't look like the happiness we define.

 

[TheRealCallie]

Is it time for my kids to go back to school yet???????

 

[Peaches]

very sad, too unprepared for the test, I can do it again in october but that means many $$$ thrown away

 

[Aisha]

No water for over 24 hours, 40 degree weather and bright sunshine surprisingly doesn't work as a great cure for a migraine. No choice, must get everything done before leaving tonight.

 

[VanillaCreme]

I should watch my mouth, but that means I'd have to take my eyes off of the stupidity I have to see.

 

[9006]

I thought it was just 12 year old girls who use hashtags to make a point lol.

 

[Peaches]

I just don't want to admit how much time does my illness take away, no wonder I am so lonely

 

[VanillaCreme]

I don't know why you constantly ask for advice and talk as though you pay attention to the conversations that you engage in, when you don't care what anyone has to say. Why waste people's time? Because you feel as though you can waste it? Or because you feel as though people won't mind you're wasting their time and effort?

 

[HoodedMonk]

I just don't want to admit how much time does my illness take away, no wonder I am so lonely

(hug)