What are you thinking right now?

[BreakingtheGirl]

I miss my mom :/
I think I miss her personality from yrs ago because now she had taken on her husband's OCD/perverted/strange/inhospitable/awkward personality. After weeks of not seeing each other, she isn't warm and friendly when I do meet up with her....it's like I have to warm up to her all over again? She'll look at me like I'm a stranger & talk to me very defensively, almost harsh. She's perfectly fine when we'd hang out together, so I know it's her husband's influence when he's around. Co-dependency at its finest.
Barely get to hang out with her without her husband tagging along & it makes me sad. She was/is my only real friend.

 

[Aisha]

Now is not the moment to realize how significant today will be to the rest of my future. I could do without this excessive anxiety.

 

[Volt]

^ Best of luck.

 

[VanillaCreme]

I'd really like to know how, but it's not worth asking.

 

[PenDragon]

There is something about life, whatever you have thrown on someone else will eventually come back at you, with bonus of course.

 

[BeyondShy]

That I want to sleep through the night.

 

[Wayfarer]

I miss my mom :/
[...]

Aw :\ Hugs

Now is not the moment to realize how significant today will be to the rest of my future. I could do without this excessive anxiety.

How did it go? I hope well.

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I know you aren't here, motivation.. you've been away for a long time. Luck has been trying to help me, but I needn't say it's not enough. Can't you just come back for a couple weeks? I'd reward you with lavish meals and! and! and.. sigh :\

 

[Lacrecia]

That I want to sleep through the night.

I wouldnt mind sleeping through the day as well lol

 

[Aisha]

^ Best of luck.

How did it go? I hope well.

I think it went well. Thank you both. =)

 

[WallflowerGirl83]

I went on youtube yesterday and see so many girls in love with Tate's character from American Horror Story. Seriously?! I mean I get that he's attractive and he's an amazing actor but his character is horrible. He's a psychopath. He kills people in the TV show and does so many horrible things too. I rather not say what else he does to be honest.

The reason I speak of this is cause I dated a Sociopath before in my past and now I'm educating myself on these types of people so I stay far far away from these kinds of people. I know I'm not perfect but when I see hundreds of girls online saying, "OMG I love Tate! I wish I could date someone like Tate and try to help him change into a better person." Other girls say, "I want to meet a man like Tate."

These girls are in danger. One day they're going to date either date an abusive guy, a sociopath or a psychopath. Now that I'm aware of this and educated and I help other people who's been abused or who's been in a relationship with a Sociopath/Psychopath. One night I had a conversation with one girl in a chat room who was abused and told her how so many girls are attracted to Tate and she said, "They're going to end up setting themselves up in the end."

 

[WishingWell]

Now I don't know if I'll get another appointment again.

 

[BreakingtheGirl]

I miss my mom :/
[...]

Aw :\ Hugs

Thanks Wayfarer. Even though it's an internet hug, I feel comforted from it.

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I went on youtube yesterday and see so many girls in love with Tate's character from American Horror Story. Seriously?! I mean I get that he's attractive and he's an amazing actor but his character is horrible. He's a psychopath. He kills people in the TV show and does so many horrible things too. I rather not say what else he does to be honest.

The reason I speak of this is cause I dated a Sociopath before in my past and now I'm educating myself on these types of people so I stay far far away from these kinds of people. I know I'm not perfect but when I see hundreds of girls online saying, "OMG I love Tate! I wish I could date someone like Tate and try to help him change into a better person." Other girls say, "I want to meet a man like Tate."

These girls are in danger. One day they're going to date either date an abusive guy, a sociopath or a psychopath. Now that I'm aware of this and educated and I help other people who's been abused or who's been in a relationship with a Sociopath/Psychopath. One night I had a conversation with one girl in a chat room who was abused and told her how so many girls are attracted to Tate and she said, "They're going to end up setting themselves up in the end."

I love AHS season 1!!
I can believe this. I think it's the "romanticized" thinking of that "forever love, even beyond the grave" that Tate has for Violet. Her character is supposed to be a loner, odd, left out, unpopular type, yet Tate loves her exactly as she is and watches her every move to "protect" her. Then again, young girls don't ever see or think about the WHOLE picture when it comes to guys (Tate in this instance). Many young girls think they will be in love forever & ever with their 1st ever crush or boyfriend.... not knowing that Life, experience,& wisdom has a way of changing things. Also, many individuals probably come from abusive homes, so they think that sort of mental abuse or physical abuse shows how much the man cares for them. One of my cousins said my aunt told her to "cause a bit of drama & argument in relationships, that way the man can prove how much he loves you & will change for you." Sick. My aunt (her mom) got divorced from by my uncle btw because of her drama & selfish personality.

Girls these days are especially mentally crazy. Thinking about the many girls leaving their countries to become ISIS brides. Scary & disturbing. Girls are just....yeah. I have a whole family full of 'em. I'm hoping for all boys if I get to have children hah :/

 

[WallflowerGirl83]

I miss my mom :/
[...]

Aw :\ Hugs

Thanks Wayfarer. Even though it's an internet hug, I feel comforted from it.

---

I went on youtube yesterday and see so many girls in love with Tate's character from American Horror Story. Seriously?! I mean I get that he's attractive and he's an amazing actor but his character is horrible. He's a psychopath. He kills people in the TV show and does so many horrible things too. I rather not say what else he does to be honest.

The reason I speak of this is cause I dated a Sociopath before in my past and now I'm educating myself on these types of people so I stay far far away from these kinds of people. I know I'm not perfect but when I see hundreds of girls online saying, "OMG I love Tate! I wish I could date someone like Tate and try to help him change into a better person." Other girls say, "I want to meet a man like Tate."

These girls are in danger. One day they're going to date either date an abusive guy, a sociopath or a psychopath. Now that I'm aware of this and educated and I help other people who's been abused or who's been in a relationship with a Sociopath/Psychopath. One night I had a conversation with one girl in a chat room who was abused and told her how so many girls are attracted to Tate and she said, "They're going to end up setting themselves up in the end."

I love AHS season 1!!
I can believe this. I think it's the "romanticized" thinking of that "forever love, even beyond the grave" that Tate has for Violet. Her character is supposed to be a loner, odd, left out, unpopular type, yet Tate loves her exactly as she is and watches her every move to "protect" her. Then again, young girls don't ever see or think about the WHOLE picture when it comes to guys (Tate in this instance). Many young girls think they will be in love forever & ever with their 1st ever crush or boyfriend.... not knowing that Life, experience,& wisdom has a way of changing things. Also, many individuals probably come from abusive homes, so they think that sort of mental abuse or physical abuse shows how much the man cares for them. One of my cousins said my aunt told her to "cause a bit of drama & argument in relationships, that way the man can prove how much he loves you & will change for you." Sick. My aunt (her mom) got divorced from by my uncle btw because of her drama & selfish personality.

Girls these days are especially mentally crazy. Thinking about the many girls leaving their countries to become ISIS brides. Scary & disturbing. Girls are just....yeah. I have a whole family full of 'em. I'm hoping for all boys if I get to have children hah :/

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Oh yeah I love season 1 too. I own it on Bluray. Tate is good looking don't get me wrong but underneath all that he's a monster. Your right about that. A lot of individuals come from a lot of abusive homes. I know I came from one and looked what happened to me. I'm not crying, saying "look boo hoo me" but it happened and I have to deal with it and seek therapy for it. It does however affect me but I'm a stronger person now cause of all the pain and I learned from these experiences. That's horrible about your family by the way. Things like that happen and it doesn't really shock me, some people are blinded by abuse and think "Hey if I just change for him and do what he says he'll love me and change." Wrong! This is the mentality I had when I was with my abusive ex boyfriend. I agree some girls these days don't see what's in front of them. In my opinion they need to educate themselves and be careful on who they date cause Teen Violence happens a lot. I'm not sure about me having kids or not. I'm 32 years old now and if I never end up having children I think I'll be perfectly okay. However people who have children, I think they should do what makes them happy. Just simply do what makes you happy, forget what anybody else thinks of you. You come first afterall.

 

[Paraiyar]

I see hundreds of girls online saying, "OMG I love Tate! I wish I could date someone like Tate and try to help him change into a better person."

I've heard this sort of thing before and I can't think of anything more stupid.

 

[lonelyfairy]

Meaningless small talk annoys me as hell. Ughh.

 

[Paraiyar]

That was really weird...About six months ago I put up an ad on the Rockshop Classifieds looking for band members. A few months later I got a response from a really strange guy who seemed interested and then told me he was he was in Palmerston North (somewhere really up north from Wellington which is where I am am) and was too far to form a band anyway (so why did you bother responding in the first place?)

For some reason I thought about him this morning (hadn't thought about him in forever) and then just before I got a text from him asking how the music was going? How strange is that?

 

[BreakingtheGirl]

I miss my mom :/
[...]

Aw :\ Hugs

Thanks Wayfarer. Even though it's an internet hug, I feel comforted from it.

---

I went on youtube yesterday and see so many girls in love with Tate's character from American Horror Story. Seriously?! I mean I get that he's attractive and he's an amazing actor but his character is horrible. He's a psychopath. He kills people in the TV show and does so many horrible things too. I rather not say what else he does to be honest.

The reason I speak of this is cause I dated a Sociopath before in my past and now I'm educating myself on these types of people so I stay far far away from these kinds of people. I know I'm not perfect but when I see hundreds of girls online saying, "OMG I love Tate! I wish I could date someone like Tate and try to help him change into a better person." Other girls say, "I want to meet a man like Tate."

These girls are in danger. One day they're going to date either date an abusive guy, a sociopath or a psychopath. Now that I'm aware of this and educated and I help other people who's been abused or who's been in a relationship with a Sociopath/Psychopath. One night I had a conversation with one girl in a chat room who was abused and told her how so many girls are attracted to Tate and she said, "They're going to end up setting themselves up in the end."

I love AHS season 1!!
I can believe this. I think it's the "romanticized" thinking of that "forever love, even beyond the grave" that Tate has for Violet. Her character is supposed to be a loner, odd, left out, unpopular type, yet Tate loves her exactly as she is and watches her every move to "protect" her. Then again, young girls don't ever see or think about the WHOLE picture when it comes to guys (Tate in this instance). Many young girls think they will be in love forever & ever with their 1st ever crush or boyfriend.... not knowing that Life, experience,& wisdom has a way of changing things. Also, many individuals probably come from abusive homes, so they think that sort of mental abuse or physical abuse shows how much the man cares for them. One of my cousins said my aunt told her to "cause a bit of drama & argument in relationships, that way the man can prove how much he loves you & will change for you." Sick. My aunt (her mom) got divorced from by my uncle btw because of her drama & selfish personality.

Girls these days are especially mentally crazy. Thinking about the many girls leaving their countries to become ISIS brides. Scary & disturbing. Girls are just....yeah. I have a whole family full of 'em. I'm hoping for all boys if I get to have children hah :/

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Oh yeah I love season 1 too. I own it on Bluray. Tate is good looking don't get me wrong but underneath all that he's a monster. Your right about that. A lot of individuals come from a lot of abusive homes. I know I came from one and looked what happened to me. I'm not crying, saying "look boo hoo me" but it happened and I have to deal with it and seek therapy for it. It does however affect me but I'm a stronger person now cause of all the pain and I learned from these experiences. That's horrible about your family by the way. Things like that happen and it doesn't really shock me, some people are blinded by abuse and think "Hey if I just change for him and do what he says he'll love me and change." Wrong! This is the mentality I had when I was with my abusive ex boyfriend. I agree some girls these days don't see what's in front of them. In my opinion they need to educate themselves and be careful on who they date cause Teen Violence happens a lot. I'm not sure about me having kids or not. I'm 32 years old now and if I never end up having children I think I'll be perfectly okay. However people who have children, I think they should do what makes them happy. Just simply do what makes you happy, forget what anybody else thinks of you. You come first afterall.

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Thank God you got out! Good for you girl That's commendable and now you can help educate other women & men you come across of the dangers you faced in your past relationship so they will know the "red warning flags" for such behaviors. You're a stronger person for going through such hell & a wiser one at that! I've done therapy too, no shame in wanting to get your mind & emotions healthy again . You deserve to live well & live happily!

 

[TheSkaFish]

Today marks two years since I've joined here. While I'm still angry, sad, and just hurt about some things as I was when I arrived, I'm trying to put it away for a while so I can start doing things again, start doing things to be happier now because I'm really starting to feel like if I don't start soon, I never will. I know I've met a lot of people over the last two years here who were encouraging and nice to me and who I've enjoyed interacting with, and hope I can continue to do so in the future. And I still think about some of the things people have said to me about being more positive. It really gets me how fast these last two years have really flown by. I hope I can keep trying to be present more so I don't waste more chances to be happy.

 

[user 130057]

Oh... my... goodness.

What, what?!

Yes what, what?!

What, Cavey.. what?!

What? What?!

Oh...

Half a lifetime ago I had a best friend whom I was inseparable from, but 20 years ago she moved away. I have seen her a few times since then, but I hadn't heard from her in many years when suddenly she turned up on my doorstep.

She came around for a longer chat yesterday and she's popping around for some tea and another chat a bit later today. It's a peculiarly disquieting experience. The Cavey that she remembers seems completely alien to me, but she doesn't seem to have changed much at all. I enjoy catching up, but it reminds me of how 'broken' I used to be.

 

[ladyforsaken]

I wanted to punch somebody earlier. Now I just want a hug.

Half a lifetime ago I had a best friend whom I was inseparable from, but 20 years ago she moved away. I have seen her a few times since then, but I hadn't heard from her in many years when suddenly she turned up on my doorstep.

She came around for a longer chat yesterday and she's popping around for some tea and another chat a bit later today. It's a peculiarly disquieting experience. The Cavey that she remembers seems completely alien to me, but she doesn't seem to have changed much at all. I enjoy catching up, but it reminds me of how 'broken' I used to be.

Sorry that it reminds you of your past, but who knows what this renewed interaction could bring. A renewed friendship perhaps? I don't know, but I hope you try to take it easy there.