It was pretty much inevitable and you can't retrieve the past and wouldn't wish to ..when your dealt an especially destructive hand..lay your cards facedown on the table and attempt to make the best of it
Turned down a promotion for another department in hopes that the promotion within my current department goes through as planned within our agency - hope it was the right decision - my current supervisor was happy to hear the decision since I waited until the last minute to make the final decision - he said he was glad that I am no longer a free agent & is going to put a franchise tag on me - lol.